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[justwunnahavfun]

how am i supposed to say goodbye to sean in eighteen days? i mean were in the middle of bickering and fighting for no reason but im still so heartbroken that i have to let him go. im losing everything when i lose him. my life will thrown so far off. i wont know what to do without him. hes not even gone yet and i cant stop crying i can barely see

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[clearfruitpunch]

Brigid, You'll still have Email, AIM, and the internet in general. And Of course, your cell phone. It'll be diffrent, But it's not like you will never see Sean again. Yeah you'll miss him. I Miss you guys and I have never been as close to you both as you two have been. But you'll be Ok. I swear.
And if Sean's not avaliable, you could always try me.

[justwunnahavfun]

it just sucks cause he's so mad at me right now. remember how, no offense, you got really mean after your freshman year when you moved home? you hated all of us. and you always say "i cant wait to go back to school" and all that? what if he starts to hate us too? we'll never be the same. like he's just suddenly become rude and so mean. and thats NOT sean. and he's blaming it on me. i feel like i am losing him, like we'll end in a fight and he wont care.

[clearfruitpunch]

it has nothing to do with you. Sean's trying to separate himself from you so he can prepare himslef mentally for college. He may come back from freshman year not thrilled to be home, but eventually he'll snap out of it. I'm sorry to say, but you just have to ride it out.
And I'm sorry about comeing home from college angry after freshman year. I was just upset that my friends from both high school and college seemed to disapper and I also had to suddenly share the Internet with you and Sean. But, I don't have to do that anymore. And probubly never will again.
And I don't think that Sean could ever hate you. Your his little sister. Hopefully He'll be fine once he relizes that he's really going away. And if not, when he gets back, Let him have the internet:)
Just think, In a year, you'll be going through these mood swings too.

nice icon. ha. ha.

[justwunnahavfun]

im not leaving anyone behind though. not siblings anyway. i mean everyone im leaving is leaving with me. besides my little sisters from school but its not the same. and yea obviously mom&dad but im not gonna have modd swings over that.

who would notice the difference anyway. i mean me. the queen of mood swings and unreasonable irritable-ness. its like me pms-ing really.

OMG IN A YEAR YOULL BE GOING TO GET A PHD OR MOVE OUT OR SOEMTHING.
OH MY FUCKING GEE.

Thank you

[clearfruitpunch]

yes Brigid, I'll be matriculating along with you...kinda...
The Ironic part is that I'll probubly more then likely end up back in Baltimore where as you will be leaving Baltimore. Either that or I'll be leaving the state altogether for grad School. Only Time will tell.