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I'm finally home. My car is fucked up more than I'd originally thought. The repairs are estimated at $3,000. The insurance is going to cover it, but now the monthly payments are probably going to be so much higher. On top of that, I had to rent a car since there's no other way for me to get to work this weekend. $50 a day. My brother also can't take my sister's car to go home this weekend either. So yeah, pretty much every single member of my family is immensely pissed off at me right now.
I can't believe I've done this to my parents who are struggling right now as it is. I'm sitting in my apartment by myself, pretty much just wallowing in guilt and self-loathing. I won't go into details. I kinda want to just go to sleep, and never get out of that early morning cocoon that my sheets turn into. Just lay there half-alive until I have something positive going on in my future.
I'm emotionally ragged. I feel like I'm one more disaster away from a mental breakdown.
Well, the new Gorillaz website opened. That's been a good distraction since I got home. So far I've explored enough that I think I've figured it all out and now there's nothing left to do but wait until they add more rooms or this thing gets finished:
Even if you're not a Gorillaz fan you should check it out, it's pretty awesome. www.gorillaz.com.
I can't believe I've done this to my parents who are struggling right now as it is. I'm sitting in my apartment by myself, pretty much just wallowing in guilt and self-loathing. I won't go into details. I kinda want to just go to sleep, and never get out of that early morning cocoon that my sheets turn into. Just lay there half-alive until I have something positive going on in my future.
I'm emotionally ragged. I feel like I'm one more disaster away from a mental breakdown.
Well, the new Gorillaz website opened. That's been a good distraction since I got home. So far I've explored enough that I think I've figured it all out and now there's nothing left to do but wait until they add more rooms or this thing gets finished:
Even if you're not a Gorillaz fan you should check it out, it's pretty awesome. www.gorillaz.com.