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I try so hard to live a life, but it's so tough having to deal with these panic attacks, I've never been this bad in my life with them. I can't leave my neighborhood now. I've been deathly afraid of having to deal with all these problems because of the severity of them. I feel useless so much, like I have no reason to live but to exist and that's all. I think about it a lot, how can I get out of this mess, how much it has affected me in the last 2 years of my life. How it ruined my education, my life completely has been ruined. I can't even make it to the doctors now because of it. I feel worthless in the eyes of family and friends. How are people suppose to lean on me and believe I'm going to do something for them. I feel isolated all the time. I can't live like this anymore, I want a release. :(