Sep 11, 2005 07:38
so this morning i got woken up an extra hour and a half early by someone knocking on my door!!! i got up and opened my door, my mom was like we need to have a talk..... are u kidding me it's 6:30 in the fucking morning and it's a sunday, i dont have to be to work until 9!!!... so she walks in and tells me to sit down and asked me why my door was locked, and i told her i didnt know, and i honestly didnt, i close my door every night b/c i cant sleep so i watch a movie or listen to music and i dont want everyone else to walk-up b/c of the noise or light, so i close my door! i dont know why it was locked though. so i sit down on my bed and she starts yelling at me that she never sees me and she cant do it, and whenver i'm home i'm upstairs. first of all when i'm up stairs i'm doing homework and talking to other people, then she is like ur always on ur cell phone not the house phone, i talk after 9 it's free and matt use to talk to lyssa on the phone so it's a habit!!! then she's like u talk to everyone that's far away b/c u dont want them to see ur life here. and that fucking pissed me off. yes i talk to guys who are far away b/c they make me feel good, everyone around here makes me feel like shit and that i'm worthless!!! so yeah ok dont i deserve some people to make me feel good about myself? with them always telling me i need to change and this is not who i am, dont u think i deserve someone who respects me, will talk to me for hours, cant u just be fucking happy that i found 2 people that share that with me!!! and are willing to, yeah they are far away but what the big fucking deal, it's not like i'm in chat rooms finding people. i've met them and hung out with them, so get over ur fucking self, dont wake me up and tell me u never see me, ur always tired, and make me feel like shit the first thing in the morning... and wonder why i'm pissed off after!!!!