He is almost home!!
He is on his way home...first it's to Kuwait then if the Army keeps with what they say..he will be home November 7 or 8 and I get to see him the 11th ....So as I type this, my BEST FRIEND STEVE should be sitting in Kuwait..yay yay yay. I have worried so much about him while he has been over there and spent alot of nights just laying in bed wondering if he was ok. With him being my best friend, I know I didn't write enough, send enough packages and god knows not have my phone on all the time but that never took away on how much I missed him. I can't even begin to count the times I have picked up my phone just to put it back down because I couldn't call him. How many times I just wanted to hear him say it's going to be ok or shut up wench. I know without a doubt how much he loves me and cares about me and being without him for the last year has been one of the hardest things I have ever done. I have sat and wrote him emails only to delete after I wrote them because I know what he was facing over there was so much more then my small problems. I got to where I wouldn't even watch the news because the minute they would say the town he was in I would panic. I can't begin to say how I feel about Steve. He knows me better then anyone, even myself at times. There are only a handful of people that really know me, that just by hearing my voice they can tell if I am ok or not (yea kristen your one of em :P ) I realized something the other day, since Steve has been gone..basically I have been also. I sorta withdrew from everyone. I didn't answer my phone, didn't stay in contact as much as I should have with others, hardly came online, I know I didn't laugh as much as I usually do, I guess I withdrew from so much because basically I felt lost,scared, worried, and alone. I can't imagine having a spouse there if this is the way I felt just because my best friend was over there. When I would talk to him online, I made sure he knew how much I missed and loved him. What he didn't know was each time I was sitting here with tears because I knew at that moment he was ok. I'm sitting here with tears now, just overjoyed he is coming home, safe, in one piece and still the hardass that he always was. I know when I see him I am just going to hug him, to feel for myself that he is really there and in person. So yea, I really love this man and I am so lucky that he is in my life not only as my best friend but someone I couldn't see my life without. I know he will read this sooner or later so the rest is for him....
Steve,
For all the times you made me smile, for all the times you held me, for all the times you laughed with me,
for all the times you listened to me when no one else would, for all the times you encouraged me, for all the times you hugged me, for all the times you shared a part of yourself with me, for all the times we have spent on the phone, for all the times you trusted me, for all the times you knew me better then I did myself, for all the times you cared about my well being, for all the times you have said "I love you", THANK YOU
For all the times you thought of me, for all the times you brought me joy, for all the times you missed me, for always knowing when I needed you, for being the most stubborn person I know, for always standing up for what you believe in, for all the road rage my ears can take, for letting me know the soft side of you, for serving our Country, for not only being my best friend, but also one of my hero's, THANK YOU
For all of this:
Never forget that when I smile at you, I'm saying "you bring out the best in me".
Never forget that my hand is always outstretched toward you.
Never forget that I am always here to listen to you.
Never forget that I will always stand behind you.
Never forget that I plan to hug you every chance I get.
Never forget that I am an open book to you.
Never forget that you need only ask me for anything, and it's yours.
Never forget that I can't wait to spend time with you.
Never forget that I completely trust you.
Never forget that I think your one amazing man.
Never forget that I care about you more then words could ever say.
Never forget that I do love you, even if I say it or not.
Never forget that I'm thinking of you right now.
Never forget that you bring me joy, especially when you smile or laugh.
Never forget that I am always here for you.
Never forget that I missed you also.
Never forget that I am here anytime you need someone to hold you. Never forget that I am so proud of the job you do protecting our freedom.
But most of all, never forget that I am so grateful your in my life and I would be so lost without you.
I have missed you more then I could ever say and thank God your safe and coming home. I will see you in just over a week, yea I am counting the days. Until you land safely in the United States, Godspeed and I love you
Maggie