It's been a long 2 days
Yesterday was well pretty boring. I went to school early and finished my research paper before class,and then I went to class which of course was boring. So then afterward I was going to go to Glenbrook mall and eat, and then I was going to go donate blood at the Red Cross. Well when I was driving to the mall I heard the clanking of cans in my backseat which I've been listening to because Andie never took out the pop cans that she'd drink like I asked her to. Well eventually I got pissed off from hearing it the entire drive so I grab my metal ruler and swing behind my passenger seat. Immediately I hear PPSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. I know what you're thinking. The pop was full....no....I hit one of my spray paint cans....yeah....I had spray paint all over my floor board, and arms. It also got some on my door, seat, center console, and arm rest. When I moved my hand I brought some up and it put on my steering wheel and gear shift....oh that sucked. So then I decide to go to my friend brittany's apartment to wash up since she goes to school at IPFW. So I go there and try to wash my arm, but I get little progress. Did I mention the paint color is dark red and looks like dried blood? My entire right arm is covered in dried dark red spray paint. Well I'm still hungry so she lets me borrow a hoodie and we go to the mall and eat. We go back to her apartment and i decide to leave and just skip my red cross thing. Fuck giving blood when it looks like it's all over my arm, right?
Well I head home and on my way out of town there's a wreck on State Road 14 and a cop is up there giving people directions. I pull up, trying to hide my stained arm and I am probably high as hell at this point because I had been smelling spray paint fumes for about an hour and a half. I had my windows down but that hardly helps. He tells me how to go on my way and when I drove away, I couldn't help but wonder if the accident was Andie. I knew she was coming up to Ft. Wayne with a guy who doesn't know how to get around, and they were going to go to O'Charley's which was near where I go to school so if she was directing him she prolly would have told him the way we usually take, which is down that road. I get home and call her dad's place...no answer. I kinda freak out all night until I find out that she wasn't in a wreck. Which is good. I ended up coming home and washing the shit off with some of my mom's help. I'm glad because I didn't want to walk around with a dark red arm for a few days. Well my night was pretty well shot. I stayed home and did homework, then talked to matt.
I woke up this morning and worked on the computer, got in the shower, and got back on the computer to finish up some homework before tony got here. He arrived and we took his car(since my reaks) up to ft. wayne and watched The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy....not a bad movie, but a little confusing. Anyway, we get back here, and I do some more homework and try to find Andie's new lj...no luck of course and then I head to work. Work was boring, I kept waiting to see andie. I had left her a note in my car and was expecting a reply, but I didn't get that until I got home. I was walking away from my car when I realized they had pulled up. I looked back and saw her, but I didn't knwo what to do. I wanted to go talk to her, and just tell her those things, but I couldn't...I just kept walking. My intentions were to take the carts in that I was pushing and come right back out. That didn't work because we were in the middle of a rush so I didn't get to go outside for like another 15 minutes...and of course she was gone. My friend Billy came in tonight and he had heard some about what happened. I'm sure he doesn't even know the half of it though. I seriously have bad luck with women, and he reminded me of it again tonight. 3 times this has happened to me...I'm tired of it. Why can't I ever make them happy enough?
Anyways I get out there and look at my stuff she dropped off. I read her letters, which I was actually expecting to see more. But she stopped writing them because she was going to break off all contact with me. I'm still not sure if it's for the best...well it probably is in order for us to get over each other, but I still want to talk to her. I still check my phone and e-mail constantly. In many ways I do miss her, but in the same instance I just want to yell at her or worse..... I wrote her another e-mail asking some more questions that arose when reading her stuff. She hadn't talked to Noah yet, which makes me suspicious whether she even wants to ditch him as a friend or not. There still hasn't been a reply, which makes me wonder if she is going to or whether she just hasn't read it yet. Maybe hse's in laporte with Linz. I don't know if I'd trust that....she'll prolly drink and smoke, but I guess I shouldn't worry about that. I guess I need to "grasp reality" and realize I shouldn't care about that stuff anymore. I hope tomorrow night will be fun. I'm getting together which quite a few of my friends...maybe then I will forget about this problem for one night. I'm sure andie will....then maybe I will be able to take a slight detour from the lonely road that is my life.....take care all................
Well I head home and on my way out of town there's a wreck on State Road 14 and a cop is up there giving people directions. I pull up, trying to hide my stained arm and I am probably high as hell at this point because I had been smelling spray paint fumes for about an hour and a half. I had my windows down but that hardly helps. He tells me how to go on my way and when I drove away, I couldn't help but wonder if the accident was Andie. I knew she was coming up to Ft. Wayne with a guy who doesn't know how to get around, and they were going to go to O'Charley's which was near where I go to school so if she was directing him she prolly would have told him the way we usually take, which is down that road. I get home and call her dad's place...no answer. I kinda freak out all night until I find out that she wasn't in a wreck. Which is good. I ended up coming home and washing the shit off with some of my mom's help. I'm glad because I didn't want to walk around with a dark red arm for a few days. Well my night was pretty well shot. I stayed home and did homework, then talked to matt.
I woke up this morning and worked on the computer, got in the shower, and got back on the computer to finish up some homework before tony got here. He arrived and we took his car(since my reaks) up to ft. wayne and watched The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy....not a bad movie, but a little confusing. Anyway, we get back here, and I do some more homework and try to find Andie's new lj...no luck of course and then I head to work. Work was boring, I kept waiting to see andie. I had left her a note in my car and was expecting a reply, but I didn't get that until I got home. I was walking away from my car when I realized they had pulled up. I looked back and saw her, but I didn't knwo what to do. I wanted to go talk to her, and just tell her those things, but I couldn't...I just kept walking. My intentions were to take the carts in that I was pushing and come right back out. That didn't work because we were in the middle of a rush so I didn't get to go outside for like another 15 minutes...and of course she was gone. My friend Billy came in tonight and he had heard some about what happened. I'm sure he doesn't even know the half of it though. I seriously have bad luck with women, and he reminded me of it again tonight. 3 times this has happened to me...I'm tired of it. Why can't I ever make them happy enough?
Anyways I get out there and look at my stuff she dropped off. I read her letters, which I was actually expecting to see more. But she stopped writing them because she was going to break off all contact with me. I'm still not sure if it's for the best...well it probably is in order for us to get over each other, but I still want to talk to her. I still check my phone and e-mail constantly. In many ways I do miss her, but in the same instance I just want to yell at her or worse..... I wrote her another e-mail asking some more questions that arose when reading her stuff. She hadn't talked to Noah yet, which makes me suspicious whether she even wants to ditch him as a friend or not. There still hasn't been a reply, which makes me wonder if she is going to or whether she just hasn't read it yet. Maybe hse's in laporte with Linz. I don't know if I'd trust that....she'll prolly drink and smoke, but I guess I shouldn't worry about that. I guess I need to "grasp reality" and realize I shouldn't care about that stuff anymore. I hope tomorrow night will be fun. I'm getting together which quite a few of my friends...maybe then I will forget about this problem for one night. I'm sure andie will....then maybe I will be able to take a slight detour from the lonely road that is my life.....take care all................