Peace stay with
A lot has been going on since my last entry. My father is set to be released from the rehab center this coming thursday after undergoing some therapy and training to help him deal with his Altheimer's disease that plagues him. My brother will arrive wednesday to welcome and assist him home. This gives me great reservation; for I have been alone here for some time now and I've grown use to that. In fact, I would have to say I like it...A LOT. How we will react to each other will be both interesting and a chore. Although extra provisions have been made; he will only get worse cause their is no cure for Altheimer's and it will win in the end. Unless some other factor steps in; the disease will claim his life. That is more or less sure. I find myself wishing some upleasant thoughts his way. I know I shouldn't; but the history between us is still very much a part of me. And more than 3/4 of that history is not good to say the least.
I have been implementing some new things to help me cope with this. Meditation being one(1) thing. I am planning to return to class this coming sat which will be part of the new year of 2010. I can only hope and pray that this will be a year that will open up for me. Now, I have to write out my resolution of things I want to do for 2010 and things before I die. Its time I took it up even more and brought it harder. I know what at least some of the reaction will be but I am going to pay it no mind. Though I know to be aware of certain things. Such as my old companion/nemisis....ENVY. I feel the green eyes of the monster on me many days a week. And in the new year, I'm sure I will feel its presence even more.
I have been implementing some new things to help me cope with this. Meditation being one(1) thing. I am planning to return to class this coming sat which will be part of the new year of 2010. I can only hope and pray that this will be a year that will open up for me. Now, I have to write out my resolution of things I want to do for 2010 and things before I die. Its time I took it up even more and brought it harder. I know what at least some of the reaction will be but I am going to pay it no mind. Though I know to be aware of certain things. Such as my old companion/nemisis....ENVY. I feel the green eyes of the monster on me many days a week. And in the new year, I'm sure I will feel its presence even more.