Fantasizing about my house...
This has begun to consume my every thought. I want out of here soooooo bad. S should be calling me at any time. She said she was busy thru Wednesday & then would have time to talk to her husband & find the papers to the house.
I can't begin to describe how bad I want this. I hate where I live. I hate my neighbors. I hate coming here every single day. I'm ready for change. I WANT THIS!
I don't even know if I have this house yet. I fear they will decide to just sell it & forego renting it. I want it.
Even not knowing I'm slowly figuring it out in my head. I've finally decided I want the utilities in my name. He can pay the rent, I'll take the utilities & we can split the rest.
I've decided who gets what room. I had really wanted the upstairs room to be the formal living room & no tv. But in reality if we're splitting the house that's not an option right now. Upstairs I'll put my nicer couch, entertainment center & rocking chair. Downstairs he can have his own frontroom in the family room. The kids & I will take the upstairs rooms. He can just have the whole basement. That's the most realistic way to split it.
I wanted privacy fencing, but chainlink will be cheaper for now.
It's like I spend hours planning for something I fear will never happen. I'm convinced in my head they will call & say they've just decided to continue holding out for a buyer & then I'll be back to square one. Just maybe if I believe, hope & pray enough God will help me just this one time. I never ask for much, but this is something I'm begging for.
I can't begin to describe how bad I want this. I hate where I live. I hate my neighbors. I hate coming here every single day. I'm ready for change. I WANT THIS!
I don't even know if I have this house yet. I fear they will decide to just sell it & forego renting it. I want it.
Even not knowing I'm slowly figuring it out in my head. I've finally decided I want the utilities in my name. He can pay the rent, I'll take the utilities & we can split the rest.
I've decided who gets what room. I had really wanted the upstairs room to be the formal living room & no tv. But in reality if we're splitting the house that's not an option right now. Upstairs I'll put my nicer couch, entertainment center & rocking chair. Downstairs he can have his own frontroom in the family room. The kids & I will take the upstairs rooms. He can just have the whole basement. That's the most realistic way to split it.
I wanted privacy fencing, but chainlink will be cheaper for now.
It's like I spend hours planning for something I fear will never happen. I'm convinced in my head they will call & say they've just decided to continue holding out for a buyer & then I'll be back to square one. Just maybe if I believe, hope & pray enough God will help me just this one time. I never ask for much, but this is something I'm begging for.