she won't even come down for pie.

[justgo]

my life has been crazy.
all of a sudden.
everything has changed.
there have been awkward moments.
and awkward drunken moments.
and jealous feelings.
and fun times.
and depressing times.
but i'm never gonna forget any of it.
and i'm never gonna forget about the people.
i hope i haven't been spending too much time with you.
almost two weeks of seeing you every single day.
and soon we'll all be split up.
and i'm gonna be so sad.
and i know i've said it before.
but i'm gonna say it again.
what if we never see each other again.
what if we forget about each other.
what would you regret doing?
or not doing?
or saying?
or not saying?
there are things i need to say.
but i don't know if i can.
there are stories i want to hear.
but you don't want to share them.
or you brush me aside.
and i feel hurt.
and i don't want to lose you.
any of you.
i wish i was strong enough to call you.
and talk to you.
because there's something you should probably know.
before you leave.
or maybe you'd be better off not knowing.
i'm so confused.
but i'm happy at the same time.
sort of.
i just want things back to the way they were.
before we got tipsy.