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i haven't updated in a while and i don't know why. am i over live journal? i don't think so. i think that so much has happened that i can't even put it into words. it would take too much of an effort. i am approaching my 19th birthday and im not very excited. i've never really gotten excited about things like that. i was trying to look back on this past year and it almost feels wasted. of course nothing is really ever wasted or that's what i hope to believe some day. i feel very blank about everything these days. what has changed in me? why am i no longer over opinionated and loud ? why don't i say what i feel? why don't i feel anymore? it's sad, but i don't care. i have cared about everything so passionately my whole life. maybe right now i just need to not care or feel anything. maybe i just need to be numb. nothings wrong. nothings right. it just is.
im really sick right now. i feel like my eyes are going to explode and my whole face is numb from all the nose blowing i've been doing lately. (don't make that dirty) when i was little i used to love getting sick. it meant that i wouldn't have to attend school. i used to wake up in the morning and pray for a fever. even when i was actually sick i don't remember it being this bad. i guess that now that i can make my own choices and i don't have any commitments being sick just isn't the break i always thought it was. i have noticed that i become a complete child when im sick. i eat all the food i used to like as a kid ( chicken nuggets, apple sauce and chocolate pudding) im tired now. bye.
~dev
im really sick right now. i feel like my eyes are going to explode and my whole face is numb from all the nose blowing i've been doing lately. (don't make that dirty) when i was little i used to love getting sick. it meant that i wouldn't have to attend school. i used to wake up in the morning and pray for a fever. even when i was actually sick i don't remember it being this bad. i guess that now that i can make my own choices and i don't have any commitments being sick just isn't the break i always thought it was. i have noticed that i become a complete child when im sick. i eat all the food i used to like as a kid ( chicken nuggets, apple sauce and chocolate pudding) im tired now. bye.
~dev