The beginning
And so it begins. One month in. Its still almost unreal. Every once in awhile it hits me, and I push it back. I'll never forget when it REALLY truly hit me. The first few months, falling in love, I knew in the back of my mind that this day was coming but 90% of the time I didnt let it get to me. Somehow I thought that the day just wouldnt come. But of course it did. October 29th. Even that morning, you were still around, so it wasnt like you would be gone at all. It started to get to me when you were all lined up. I tried so hard not to cry but that didnt work so well. When they finally said you could see us, I had to find you, to hold you, and cling to you. Some crazy thought was that if I held on just a little longer than you wouldnt have to leave my side. And of course you had to. So I'll never forget that last desperate hug and watching you, completely helplessly, as you walked towards the bus. You were the goober jumping up, crazy grin on your face, waving. My goober. Watching you walk towards the bus, unable to follow you, was when it finally hit me. You were leaving and not coming back for a long time. But, five minutes and a few hugs later, I got a call from you...and I knew it would be OK.
And so, one month later, we've been making it through. It hasnt been easy, and already emotions have gotten the best of us. This is the beginning of a long journey together....apart in miles..but together in heart. I love you Jonathan Kalnicki and I will be here, waiting for you, loving you, always, forever. One month down.. We can do this baby.
"I’ll be livin’ off your phone calls, in your letters, and your postcards.
Every single word is like a secret wish come true.
But who cares if we’re apart for the big days
Since the small ones that made me fall in love with you"
"This place is not the same without the smile on your face
And if you were here then I would take you everywhere."
"The miles between
don't matter to me.
They only bring clarity
to what I know is true.
Time apart
tests sanity
but never takes away
the substance of you."