update 3 for the day
so i know this is probably getting old, all my updates but ive become so unsure of everything but reading other peoples ljs really helps cause i realize im not the only one and that feels so good right now. i like doug (not love which feels kidna weird to say) but i mean i think a part of me will always like doug because he was my first love which is like real deep shit right there. and then theres rip, who well lets just say is amazing, hes really sweet (unless hes being a jerk but then he apologizes for it later) and i mean i hate him sometimes, but even when i hate him, i dont and its weird i know, but i cant explain it. he always finds a way to make me not mad after him even if im pissed at him. and of course theres marty who is always the sweetest kid in the world to me, but his friends are trying to set him up with other girls which kinda kills everything that he and i had. and then theres adam...and i dunno what i can say about adam, i love that kid, he's my best friend and i can tell him whatever i want and know that it wont mess up our relationship. he and i get along really well and like we always know what to talk about and hes just always there for me.
so outa all the guys i really dont know what to think about anything. and then theres my friends who i kinda feel like ive been drifting from, i mean i know theyre still there, but things are just so different between all of us now and i dont know why, esp. caitlin, its just so awkward between us and i really cant tell why cause i love that girl and weve been friends since 6th grade but now things are just weird. and hilary who is awesome and we got really close last year but now shes at towson and i feel like theres worlds between us and i cant tell her everything anymore. ive started hanging out with new people too which might be the reason, like erin and april and those kids are awesome and i love them, oh i cant forget my maria pas. cause shes one cool kid herself, but i dont want to lose the friends i already had because im friends with more people, something just doesnt feel right about that
so im done rambling now, and if you read all this i really apprciate this cause it means a lot to me, and comment on it if you wanna cause i love it when people commeont on what i wrote
so outa all the guys i really dont know what to think about anything. and then theres my friends who i kinda feel like ive been drifting from, i mean i know theyre still there, but things are just so different between all of us now and i dont know why, esp. caitlin, its just so awkward between us and i really cant tell why cause i love that girl and weve been friends since 6th grade but now things are just weird. and hilary who is awesome and we got really close last year but now shes at towson and i feel like theres worlds between us and i cant tell her everything anymore. ive started hanging out with new people too which might be the reason, like erin and april and those kids are awesome and i love them, oh i cant forget my maria pas. cause shes one cool kid herself, but i dont want to lose the friends i already had because im friends with more people, something just doesnt feel right about that
so im done rambling now, and if you read all this i really apprciate this cause it means a lot to me, and comment on it if you wanna cause i love it when people commeont on what i wrote