why?
im sitting here with elisa and were both just wondering what we must have done wrong. being emo is definitely not our thing, but lately thats all that kinda relieves us from the pain we've both got. she misses her rey and i miss my ash, but we both know that no matter what we do and no matter what we say, theyre not gonna come back to save us. so me and elisa sat here looking at my photo bucket pictures. i barely could finish looking at all of them because most of them reminded me of her. everywhere i go and everything i see reminds me of her and i cant go on a day without thinking of her. i cant believe that its been over a month already and im still sitting here with tears in my eyes. yesterday, at the trainstation, elisa started to cry when we talked about rey and how much fun they had when they made out and some old guy started to choke. it was pretty digusting cuz when we were on the train, we heard some old guy spitting and choking and then she started to laugh but then cry too. i felt so bad because i knew exacly what she went through. even at work i get reminded of her everyday. i was working at the library and some guy came in asking for a book by the author jack keating, i stopped doing what i was doing, and just looked at him through wide eyes....i think i kinda scared him, but i asked him by which author it was by again and he said the name again. i just loooked at him and then walked to the back room by myself. i cant believe i let this kind of stuff get to me.so me n elisa are both still going through heartbreak, no big deal right? its gonna hurt...and theres nothing we could do. what i really hate is the love thats still there for her.i dont think itll ever go away.