things are a changin, for the good?
im sick. i have fever and a really bad headache, plus i coughed up a little blood this morning. but i cant not go to school. because once the weekend comes i need to drink. i want, need a fucking drink. my head probably hurts because my moms a bitch. fucking cunt. anyway im going to sleep. i need chicken soup and a stogge.
and by the way tomorrow is my first appointment with my out of school shrink. i hope she doesnt think i need meds like the school doctor. im sad, but i dont want to go on happy pills. i want genuine happiness, not some chemically altered mood. unless its me altering it lol.
im talking to a nice guy now too, so thats good. and for rich, im gonn tell him to fuck off. because after not calling me for 3 weeks, what else would he expect? a welcome back fuck session? no. im talking to this guy josh, hes 21. but hes really sweet. we havent even talked about anything relating to sex yet. im acting really innocent. i want to be wifey today not just a slide anymore. fuck that. im too good for assholes that want to use me. im done with their shit. im above them. im amazing!
...and actually feeling kind of happy right now.
and by the way tomorrow is my first appointment with my out of school shrink. i hope she doesnt think i need meds like the school doctor. im sad, but i dont want to go on happy pills. i want genuine happiness, not some chemically altered mood. unless its me altering it lol.
im talking to a nice guy now too, so thats good. and for rich, im gonn tell him to fuck off. because after not calling me for 3 weeks, what else would he expect? a welcome back fuck session? no. im talking to this guy josh, hes 21. but hes really sweet. we havent even talked about anything relating to sex yet. im acting really innocent. i want to be wifey today not just a slide anymore. fuck that. im too good for assholes that want to use me. im done with their shit. im above them. im amazing!
...and actually feeling kind of happy right now.