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[justashow]

We had sex.  I don't want to talk about it.

...I hate this place.

[ooc:  Cursed (obviously) with The Elephant In the Corner.  He'll be compelled to talk about the last thing he wants to talk about.  Bother him at your own peril!]

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[justashow]

Why are you sorry? You don't even like me.

[justashow]

She thinks I did it to be spiteful. To hurt her.

[justashow]

Why would I sleep with someone I don't like? Someone my best friend is sleeping with? Someone I'm terrified of?

I expected...I expected her to at least not think of me as a horrible, vindictive slut.

[justashow]

If you felt him feed...I wanted to please him so much, I would have cut my own throat if he gave the word, in that moment. You don't think that's terrifying?

Her first response was to accuse me. Lately, that's been her first response, no matter what I do. She was Warren's friend first. Maybe I was just along for the ride, and without his approval she doesn't care for me.

[justashow]

I don't even like being out of control with people I love and trust. I know I gave my consent and he could have done much worse things...but it still scares me. And every touch now feels like being unsafe, feels out of my control.

She says she does.

[justashow]

Thank you for your support but...I don't think so. And anyway, she's right about me, even if she's not right about why I had sex with Thomas. I'm not a good person.

[justashow]

I've heard her talk about me too. It's not the kind of talk that says 'I care a lot about this person'. It's more 'this person is a bastard' talk.

What do you want me to do? I can't let it go any more than I already have. Do you want me to start liking him? Arrange dates for them? Exchange sex techniques and tips with Mercy? I can't do that.

[justashow]

Thank you for your concern.