This week..
.. is going to suck.
I've missed two practices mostly from lazyness.. partially from fear of the cold and getting more sick.
Huge audio project due on thursday but my software doesnt work so I need to borrow someone elses desktop.
Missing thursdays practice for a concert, with my ex who decided that he made a mistake in ending it, but I disagree with him.
Then 8am Midterm on Friday morning, even though I get back at 3 am at the earliest from the concert... but i can't not go to the concert because I already payed for it, and I'm the ex's ride anyways. Then compsci project due at midnight on friday. Then I get picked up by my mom to go home for break, which I'm spending with my sister in Brooklyn hopefully because I don't want to go home. And she'll be at work most of the time and I'll be doing nothing in her apartment.. which I'm actually looking forward to I guess.
Just need to get through this week. Seriously ridiculous. I'm fucking absolutely everything up. I need to get away from my life for a while.. I don't really want to come back. Maybe I'll change my name and move to the west coast or something. Start over. I have good beginnings.. I just fuck it all up somehow. It's a talent really.
On another note... Tyler called Sunday. He wants me to come visit over break. I think I will. It's all so different than how it used to be. I miss loving him. Even with all the pain, it was completely worth it. I just hope someday I'll be able to feel that again.
ohhh and my date to delts formal likes me now too. I lose.
I've missed two practices mostly from lazyness.. partially from fear of the cold and getting more sick.
Huge audio project due on thursday but my software doesnt work so I need to borrow someone elses desktop.
Missing thursdays practice for a concert, with my ex who decided that he made a mistake in ending it, but I disagree with him.
Then 8am Midterm on Friday morning, even though I get back at 3 am at the earliest from the concert... but i can't not go to the concert because I already payed for it, and I'm the ex's ride anyways. Then compsci project due at midnight on friday. Then I get picked up by my mom to go home for break, which I'm spending with my sister in Brooklyn hopefully because I don't want to go home. And she'll be at work most of the time and I'll be doing nothing in her apartment.. which I'm actually looking forward to I guess.
Just need to get through this week. Seriously ridiculous. I'm fucking absolutely everything up. I need to get away from my life for a while.. I don't really want to come back. Maybe I'll change my name and move to the west coast or something. Start over. I have good beginnings.. I just fuck it all up somehow. It's a talent really.
On another note... Tyler called Sunday. He wants me to come visit over break. I think I will. It's all so different than how it used to be. I miss loving him. Even with all the pain, it was completely worth it. I just hope someday I'll be able to feel that again.
ohhh and my date to delts formal likes me now too. I lose.