in this skin
I need to stop over analyzing everything. Just let it be. It's not a competition. Even though it really is. And I'm losing.
And I'm in just the shittyest mood, and I don't know exactly why. It's like the pieces barely fit. So close but just a few gaps that just make me nervous. I feel nervous, and scared, and awkward, and just so out of place.
I need to get out of here, even if for half a day, I need to do something. I need to go ice skating, and listen to a whole new world. I need to not be myself for just a second. I want to fly. I want to do something dangerous. Something, anything, that will make me feel different from what I'm feeling now.
And I'm in just the shittyest mood, and I don't know exactly why. It's like the pieces barely fit. So close but just a few gaps that just make me nervous. I feel nervous, and scared, and awkward, and just so out of place.
I need to get out of here, even if for half a day, I need to do something. I need to go ice skating, and listen to a whole new world. I need to not be myself for just a second. I want to fly. I want to do something dangerous. Something, anything, that will make me feel different from what I'm feeling now.