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Open: Ponderings

Jun 04, 2009 13:11

( Spoilers for 4.22 behind Cut )

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hasperkynipples June 4 2009, 19:02:44 UTC

You're not a monster, Sam.

likely_evil June 4 2009, 19:09:22 UTC

I'm not sure about that anymore, Dean.

hasperkynipples June 4 2009, 19:10:34 UTC

Well, I am. You're not.

likely_evil June 4 2009, 19:13:02 UTC

Dean... I... I killed someone.

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fromheavencame June 4 2009, 19:09:29 UTC

I can relate.

likely_evil June 4 2009, 19:12:18 UTC

I used to think there was a line between being human and a monster. And I think i stepped over it, and I don't know if once you step over, if you can go back...

fromheavencame June 4 2009, 19:15:45 UTC

I still think there is a line, and being able to become human again after doing monstrous things is the only thing that I'm clinging to. God always forgives those who truly seek it, though, so there must be a way.

likely_evil June 4 2009, 19:16:41 UTC

I don't think God's listening anymore. If he was... they wouldn't have made me do this...

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the_impala_kid June 4 2009, 19:51:18 UTC

You just need some time, is all. *he nods, putting some serious head-movement and conviction into it* Just some time to get your mind together. To start feelin' like you again.

likely_evil June 4 2009, 19:57:42 UTC

What if I start craving again? Or worse, what if I'm really a demon now, Dean?

the_impala_kid June 4 2009, 20:02:44 UTC

You're not. *he doesn't know for sure, but he won't allow the possibility*

If you start cravin again, hell, I dunno. Pop a piece of nicorette or somethin'. Bitch basically told you it was all in your mind, right? So it's a mental thing, not a physical thing. Mental we can handle.

likely_evil June 4 2009, 20:06:56 UTC

Yeah, but I kinda went beyond the tolerance level. I mean, when I do something, I go all the way, Dean. And I did. You didn't see me, but I was there and felt it.

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winchesterjerk June 4 2009, 19:58:20 UTC

Dude. You're Sam. The way you are.

You made a few crappy choices. I know how that feels. But I don't think you're a monster. You don't act like a monster. Except when you hog all the Lucky Charms and I'm hungry, I mean.

likely_evil June 4 2009, 20:02:02 UTC

Crappy choices? Dude, I think some of what I did go beyond that level...

winchesterjerk June 4 2009, 20:03:29 UTC

Yeah? Which ones in particular do you think did?

likely_evil June 4 2009, 20:05:40 UTC

... I killed someone. Cold blood, human awake and aware.

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faiththatfuelsu June 4 2009, 19:58:53 UTC

You can come back from it. Fallin' off that ledge is a bitch, but you can pull yourself back up.

likely_evil June 4 2009, 20:02:44 UTC

I really hope so. It just... i went too far. I promised I would never go there and I did...

faiththatfuelsu June 4 2009, 20:16:05 UTC

It happens. It's what you do after that makes the difference. Won't lie and tell you it's easy- probably the farthest thing from it, I have a good feeling you can handle it though.

likely_evil June 4 2009, 20:29:06 UTC

I still hear her screaming sometimes...

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