Tough Stuff
The last couple days have been well.....interesting and tough, generally unpleasent with moments of goodness, and peace.
Everything started with lying to my boss so i could go to a rehearsle dinner for the wedding i was singing in on Saterday. Friday i called my boss and told him i had been throwing up, and the day before and that i still wasn't feeling well........well the honest truth was i couldn't bring myself to tell my boss i wanted the night off so i could practice with the guy i was singing with, 5 hours before i had to work, so "some how" (by my willful choice)my slight stomache ache and aching body turned into i had been puking the day before. As soon as i got off the phone my stomache really started hurting, i didn't realize at all that living with integrity in every area of my life by the strength of the Lord could be stolen by one lie, to someone who never would have found out, and yet i would of had to lived with knowing the same people i was trying to be genuine to, reach out to, and minister to were the same ones i lied to. That just would not do.......so why didn't i call him right back.....PRIDE! Stupid FRIGG'N PRIDE RUINS EVERYTHING!!! So i went to the rehearsle dinner and later realized hey i really didn't have to go to that oh well. So my intergrity was stolen, actually i had freely given it up and over nothing important, great, i try to live by Joseph's motto from the bible when tempted with his masters wives advacnces and she tore his coat as he refused to do anything with her "It's better to lose your coat than you character" I know that's true in this case, my coat was the pride of being a flaky friend or unreliable person, it was a super honor to sing in their wedding for me and i wanted everything to be perfect. So that was the begining of my weekend, that night i watched ex-men two with many friends that was good times other than the fact that all i saw around me were budding couples and no available guy i was interested in. That was not so much fun..... Saterday rolled around and my Dad told me he had called my work looking for me (because my friend had driven me to the dinner)'cause he wanted to know if he could use my car. I said "You what???" why would my Dad call my work. Further more friday night.....To be Continued
Everything started with lying to my boss so i could go to a rehearsle dinner for the wedding i was singing in on Saterday. Friday i called my boss and told him i had been throwing up, and the day before and that i still wasn't feeling well........well the honest truth was i couldn't bring myself to tell my boss i wanted the night off so i could practice with the guy i was singing with, 5 hours before i had to work, so "some how" (by my willful choice)my slight stomache ache and aching body turned into i had been puking the day before. As soon as i got off the phone my stomache really started hurting, i didn't realize at all that living with integrity in every area of my life by the strength of the Lord could be stolen by one lie, to someone who never would have found out, and yet i would of had to lived with knowing the same people i was trying to be genuine to, reach out to, and minister to were the same ones i lied to. That just would not do.......so why didn't i call him right back.....PRIDE! Stupid FRIGG'N PRIDE RUINS EVERYTHING!!! So i went to the rehearsle dinner and later realized hey i really didn't have to go to that oh well. So my intergrity was stolen, actually i had freely given it up and over nothing important, great, i try to live by Joseph's motto from the bible when tempted with his masters wives advacnces and she tore his coat as he refused to do anything with her "It's better to lose your coat than you character" I know that's true in this case, my coat was the pride of being a flaky friend or unreliable person, it was a super honor to sing in their wedding for me and i wanted everything to be perfect. So that was the begining of my weekend, that night i watched ex-men two with many friends that was good times other than the fact that all i saw around me were budding couples and no available guy i was interested in. That was not so much fun..... Saterday rolled around and my Dad told me he had called my work looking for me (because my friend had driven me to the dinner)'cause he wanted to know if he could use my car. I said "You what???" why would my Dad call my work. Further more friday night.....To be Continued