meme time
I got this fascinating meme from Zimena. While I could have written much more in categories 4 through 7, I felt I was wordy enough in the first three!
ONE insecurity:
I have always felt that I am just not good enough, in every aspect of my life. Many things from my past probably influenced this. My parents were rather like perfectionists who expected the best from me and I felt I never delivered. My unfortunate younger sister developed an eye disease at a young age and almost lost her sight, and like many children I felt guilty about her troubles and felt I had to melt into the background while she took centre stage with my parents. Then at age 19 the first of many of my friends was killed in a horrific accident while sky-diving when her parachute didn't open. This was followed by 5 more friends' early deaths, from diseases to accidents. I think all those deaths made me wonder why they were taken so young and not me? They were all talented, dynamic, worthy women who did not deserve to die before their time.
TWO fears:
I am always afraid that more people I love will die before me. However, I feel that since I've been through this type of tragedy many times, I am strong enough to deal with it. In my experience I know that if/when it happens again a certain numbness will fall over me and remain as a protective "covering" while I deal with the various stages of grief.
I have always, as long as I can remember, had a fear of fire. While I've never experienced being in a fire, my sister has - her house burned down just after she had had her second child. She and her husband and two small children had to move in with my parents while their house was being rebuilt. I know full well the nightmare she had to endure.
THREE turn-ons:
These are all to do with the opposite sex:
Height. I've always gotten weak-kneed when confronted with an extremely tall and attractive man.
Sense of humour. If a man doesn't have this, he doesn't have me.
Depth. In a member of the opposite sex, there has to be more than good looks to stimulate me sexually. He must have deep feelings about the things that he cares about, he must be able to be moved to tears at certain moments, and he must exhibit all other types of passion when faced with certain issues.
FOUR life goals:
I'm a bit long in the tooth to have proper goals, but I'll try to answer this one.
I would like to be happy and peaceful in my old age. I can do without any more drama in my life.
I hope I am able to stay healthy. So far so good.
I hope to finish the book I started writing some years ago.
Lastly, I would love to take a university course in anthropology, but that is probably a dream that will never materialize.
FIVE things I like:
- animals
- nature
- Nordic Noir
- mystery novels
- getting together with friends
SIX weaknesses:
- I spend too much and am not good with money at all.
- I'm too impatient.
- I can be apathetic about things.
- I don't like to be in control but sometimes I need to be.
- I'm basically a loner who never gets to be alone.
SEVEN things I love:
- my cats
- my relatives and friends - all of them.
- sports.
- hiking and the outdoors.
- writing when I can
- reading
- watching mysteries and police dramas on TV.
ONE insecurity:
I have always felt that I am just not good enough, in every aspect of my life. Many things from my past probably influenced this. My parents were rather like perfectionists who expected the best from me and I felt I never delivered. My unfortunate younger sister developed an eye disease at a young age and almost lost her sight, and like many children I felt guilty about her troubles and felt I had to melt into the background while she took centre stage with my parents. Then at age 19 the first of many of my friends was killed in a horrific accident while sky-diving when her parachute didn't open. This was followed by 5 more friends' early deaths, from diseases to accidents. I think all those deaths made me wonder why they were taken so young and not me? They were all talented, dynamic, worthy women who did not deserve to die before their time.
TWO fears:
I am always afraid that more people I love will die before me. However, I feel that since I've been through this type of tragedy many times, I am strong enough to deal with it. In my experience I know that if/when it happens again a certain numbness will fall over me and remain as a protective "covering" while I deal with the various stages of grief.
I have always, as long as I can remember, had a fear of fire. While I've never experienced being in a fire, my sister has - her house burned down just after she had had her second child. She and her husband and two small children had to move in with my parents while their house was being rebuilt. I know full well the nightmare she had to endure.
THREE turn-ons:
These are all to do with the opposite sex:
Height. I've always gotten weak-kneed when confronted with an extremely tall and attractive man.
Sense of humour. If a man doesn't have this, he doesn't have me.
Depth. In a member of the opposite sex, there has to be more than good looks to stimulate me sexually. He must have deep feelings about the things that he cares about, he must be able to be moved to tears at certain moments, and he must exhibit all other types of passion when faced with certain issues.
FOUR life goals:
I'm a bit long in the tooth to have proper goals, but I'll try to answer this one.
I would like to be happy and peaceful in my old age. I can do without any more drama in my life.
I hope I am able to stay healthy. So far so good.
I hope to finish the book I started writing some years ago.
Lastly, I would love to take a university course in anthropology, but that is probably a dream that will never materialize.
FIVE things I like:
- animals
- nature
- Nordic Noir
- mystery novels
- getting together with friends
SIX weaknesses:
- I spend too much and am not good with money at all.
- I'm too impatient.
- I can be apathetic about things.
- I don't like to be in control but sometimes I need to be.
- I'm basically a loner who never gets to be alone.
SEVEN things I love:
- my cats
- my relatives and friends - all of them.
- sports.
- hiking and the outdoors.
- writing when I can
- reading
- watching mysteries and police dramas on TV.