I really didn't want to hear that about my dad. I think that's gross and I thought that he just loved my mom and now I have no idea. It's almost as gross as you sleeping with Snape, but Snape is grosser because he's oily and smelly and disgusting and I bet my dad at least bathed or something and I don't understand why you and Remus sleep with so many people and why aren't you enough for each other? Because you know what is going to happen? You are going to find other people or you are going to get jealous and break up or something and what's the point of even having a family if you can't keep it? Because sometimes I almost wish that I never met you and Remus because I don't want to lose you but sometimes when you guys do stuff like this it's like you don't even care about me at all or care about each other and do you know where I can go where there are no computers?
I don't want you to leave me alone. You're the closest thing I ever had to a dad and I need you. And I know it's not my business and I wish I hadn't heard about it but it keeps happening and that makes it my business because you said that we're a family and when you do stuff like that it means we're not going to stay a family and that is my business unless you don't want to be a family with me. And then I guess it's not.
Of course I want us to be a family. I cannot change the things I have done. Azkaban... well, I just hope you never have to find out what it's like. I think you have some clue. But it... leaves you empty. You have to fill that void. And no one is perfect, but I love Remus and I love you and I would never leave either of you.
I am so, so sorry, Harry. You have every right to feel the way you do and frankly I don't blame you, it's hard to see things like that about someone you love and there really isn't much you can do about it but let it hurt and I wish there were something I could tell you to to reassure you that Sirius and I will always be together but there isn't, all marriages are a risk and a leap of faith and that's exactly what I did when I married your godfather, I took a chance on him and I don't know what will happen but I know that I love him dearly, more than anyone else I have ever been with (both of them) and that whatever happens it was worth it.
But remember that Azkaban and a curse couldn't keep us apart, Harry. I don't think anything else stands a chance.
One thing I can say before this potion wears off is that Sirius and I will never, ever, EVER leave you. We will always be with you in whatever way we can be and we will always love you, you have no idea how much and if I had to and if Sirius had to we would lay our lives down for you
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I'm not going anywhere, love. You're stuck with me forever. Literally because werewolves are immortal and I never talk about this but I'll outlive everyone that I love and oh God I don't want to think about that but it's all that I ever think about that I love you and Sirius so much and I'm going to be the last one left behind in the end and I don't know if I can stand being alone again for so long I need you and Sirius more than I think you need me.
After I shut down all these bloody computers and get rid of them forever I will come sit on the other side of the bathroom door. You can sleep in there there if you want to, Harry, though you don't have to because I want you to come out and talk to us, but if you do I will be right out in the hall keeping watch and Sirius is right beside me.
I'm so sorry.
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That happened long ago. Before your mother and father were even together. It has nothing to do with you.
What I've done in the past is my business, but I'm sorry you had to hear about it this way.
And Remus hasn't slept with many people at all, please don't think of him like that. He deserves better.
I cannot take it all back. I am sorry. I will leave you alone if you wish.
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I am so, so sorry, Harry. You have every right to feel the way you do and frankly I don't blame you, it's hard to see things like that about someone you love and there really isn't much you can do about it but let it hurt and I wish there were something I could tell you to to reassure you that Sirius and I will always be together but there isn't, all marriages are a risk and a leap of faith and that's exactly what I did when I married your godfather, I took a chance on him and I don't know what will happen but I know that I love him dearly, more than anyone else I have ever been with (both of them) and that whatever happens it was worth it.
But remember that Azkaban and a curse couldn't keep us apart, Harry. I don't think anything else stands a chance.
One thing I can say before this potion wears off is that Sirius and I will never, ever, EVER leave you. We will always be with you in whatever way we can be and we will always love you, you have no idea how much and if I had to and if Sirius had to we would lay our lives down for you ( ... )
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I'm not going anywhere, love. You're stuck with me forever. Literally because werewolves are immortal and I never talk about this but I'll outlive everyone that I love and oh God I don't want to think about that but it's all that I ever think about that I love you and Sirius so much and I'm going to be the last one left behind in the end and I don't know if I can stand being alone again for so long I need you and Sirius more than I think you need me.
Harry where are you? Are you still in the house?
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After I shut down all these bloody computers and get rid of them forever I will come sit on the other side of the bathroom door. You can sleep in there there if you want to, Harry, though you don't have to because I want you to come out and talk to us, but if you do I will be right out in the hall keeping watch and Sirius is right beside me.
And we're not leaving.
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Love you.
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