Wants
So the way things stand, Jonnie Ann is still in the dark as to what she wants in life. Most people reading this will think thats absolutely normal, but she apparantly has no idea of a desire for herself. I thought that going into college I wanted to be an engineer. I wanted to be with my girlfriend Cheryl at the time and I wanted to have a happy life with children and vacations and a job that let me look forward to the weekends. But as time went on I knew what I really wanted had changed, hence I changed. But almost one year later, she has not changed except that she is openly more cold to the world as a whole. I took down her walls and now I have to pay the price. But as much as I have to pay, where is she to even hint that I am wanted? To know me is to know my past, and all I really want is to be wanted. When will she learn I don't need to have stuff, or always get my way, but that I don't have to spoon feed her an answer that what she wants can be trivial and change each time I ask but I want to be a part of it.