Again and again
So lately I have been thinking of doing all sorts of things. And for the most part, my girlfriend either doesn't want to be a part of them or is fighting me along the way. Now I am not the evil kinda bastard that will make her do anything, and what I want to do is simply just go on trips to places or go out and do random stuff. I don't need my life planned out weeks in advance in order to go and have fun, nor do I have to always sit at home and watch TV. I did that for long enough and now I want out!
Now Jonnie has to take on the prosepct that her first college educational experience is not going to be that amazing. I told her as she finished last year that she needed to bring her grades up so that the problems of money and admission would be resolved, but nothing was done on her end. Now you may think that this is no way my fault, but as far as talking with her goes it is. No one told her to do better. I didn't say she wouldn't get in. I didn't tell her that only Rutger's crappy locations would take her. So now it is MY fault because I didn't tell her enough. WTF!!!! Everything in our relationship was good originally because we went out, had fun, chilled with random people, and then called it a night. Now it's always, "I'm tired" or excuses not to go anywhere but my house because we can be alone and undisturbed for 5 seconds down there. I don't expect a crap load of energy after days of errands or work, but not everyday can be like that. It's not possible! I just wanted an equal relationship with completely open and honest conversations. Now I feel that the scales are tipping in all kinds of directions. I still fight down the ideas of restarting this, but if we do that, does that mean we gave up once? And that's true are we going to give up again? You said it best hun, I love you. But sometimes you are just not likable.
Now Jonnie has to take on the prosepct that her first college educational experience is not going to be that amazing. I told her as she finished last year that she needed to bring her grades up so that the problems of money and admission would be resolved, but nothing was done on her end. Now you may think that this is no way my fault, but as far as talking with her goes it is. No one told her to do better. I didn't say she wouldn't get in. I didn't tell her that only Rutger's crappy locations would take her. So now it is MY fault because I didn't tell her enough. WTF!!!! Everything in our relationship was good originally because we went out, had fun, chilled with random people, and then called it a night. Now it's always, "I'm tired" or excuses not to go anywhere but my house because we can be alone and undisturbed for 5 seconds down there. I don't expect a crap load of energy after days of errands or work, but not everyday can be like that. It's not possible! I just wanted an equal relationship with completely open and honest conversations. Now I feel that the scales are tipping in all kinds of directions. I still fight down the ideas of restarting this, but if we do that, does that mean we gave up once? And that's true are we going to give up again? You said it best hun, I love you. But sometimes you are just not likable.