I was pretty much in the same boat. The only difference was with me, I wouldn't say I was strong in my faith, but rather I wanted to be, because it was all I knew growing up. I tried to believe from the start, but something was always off for me.
I had a lot of questions, mostly about the Bible's hypocrisy, and it seemed no one was able to give me a straight answer. As I grew up and realized I was gay, I began to turn away from Christianity more than ever. I don't understand how people can cherrypick certain verses from the Bible (such as the whole thing against homosexuals), but then pretend other verses don't exist (such as the one saying to stone your wife if you discover she isn't a virgin after your wedding). I would think you have to accept the whole thing or none of it, if you truly believe the Bible is the word of God. That's why I find it so confusing.
I didn't find my religion hard to unlearn, but maybe that's because I always suspected it was something I didn't want to fully learn, anyway. I was more angry with my parents that tried to instill it all in me from a young age. It's what made me deny my sexuality and try to hide it for a long time which caused me terrible anguish. I finally realize homosexuality is completely normal and natural and I don't have to feel ashamed for loving anyone.
Sorry for rambling, heh. But my point is, you'll get through it, it just may take a little time.
I had a lot of questions, mostly about the Bible's hypocrisy, and it seemed no one was able to give me a straight answer. As I grew up and realized I was gay, I began to turn away from Christianity more than ever. I don't understand how people can cherrypick certain verses from the Bible (such as the whole thing against homosexuals), but then pretend other verses don't exist (such as the one saying to stone your wife if you discover she isn't a virgin after your wedding). I would think you have to accept the whole thing or none of it, if you truly believe the Bible is the word of God. That's why I find it so confusing.
I didn't find my religion hard to unlearn, but maybe that's because I always suspected it was something I didn't want to fully learn, anyway. I was more angry with my parents that tried to instill it all in me from a young age. It's what made me deny my sexuality and try to hide it for a long time which caused me terrible anguish. I finally realize homosexuality is completely normal and natural and I don't have to feel ashamed for loving anyone.
Sorry for rambling, heh. But my point is, you'll get through it, it just may take a little time.
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