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AHHH
this is the first time EVER that i have ever not known what to say when i talk to someone. I always have something to say, but this time i dont.
I feel so stupid.
I never ever know what to say to him! So instead i hang around where he is in hopes that he'll talk to me, but no such luck. I guess he maybe doesnt know what to say. I don't think i should have had lisa say something to him, because maybe now he's intimidated or scared or feel awkward. huh.
The funny thing is, SO many people make fun of him. SOOO many. I guess everyone thinks hes a poser and does things to look cool in front of other people. it kind of makes sense...
But nothing else does! But i kind of understand why he would be awkward, or that he does feel awkward. The only thing he seems to be able to say to me in the past few days were stupid things like "what does blue taste like?" But maybe thats just because he was stoned. Maybe every morning he is just stoned and doesnt know what hes doing and thats why he doesnt talk to me outside of class. huh.
Why do things have to be so difficult?
this is the first time EVER that i have ever not known what to say when i talk to someone. I always have something to say, but this time i dont.
I feel so stupid.
I never ever know what to say to him! So instead i hang around where he is in hopes that he'll talk to me, but no such luck. I guess he maybe doesnt know what to say. I don't think i should have had lisa say something to him, because maybe now he's intimidated or scared or feel awkward. huh.
The funny thing is, SO many people make fun of him. SOOO many. I guess everyone thinks hes a poser and does things to look cool in front of other people. it kind of makes sense...
But nothing else does! But i kind of understand why he would be awkward, or that he does feel awkward. The only thing he seems to be able to say to me in the past few days were stupid things like "what does blue taste like?" But maybe thats just because he was stoned. Maybe every morning he is just stoned and doesnt know what hes doing and thats why he doesnt talk to me outside of class. huh.
Why do things have to be so difficult?