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Waiting. I think that's the hardest part of all. I trust in him with my whole heart but the waiting is wrteched. It's been a couple of months and I am still down and out and I don't know when I'll get back in the game. What's worse is I feel like I've exhausted all my options, so much so that I don't know where to go.
Doubt. It's so unfortunate to have. Doubt on yourself, on your capabilities, on the possibility that a better future could be right in front of you. Doubt is leading me to fear, it's leading me to a murky future. As much as I think I know what I want, the question that begs to be asked is whether it's what he wants me to do. Especially if nothing is falling into place. I had an opportunity, but I didn't know if it was the right opportunity for me. I certainly had my doubts. And now, I really am running out of time and resources. I need it soon. And I am so afraid I wouldn't get it on time.
Doubt. It's so unfortunate to have. Doubt on yourself, on your capabilities, on the possibility that a better future could be right in front of you. Doubt is leading me to fear, it's leading me to a murky future. As much as I think I know what I want, the question that begs to be asked is whether it's what he wants me to do. Especially if nothing is falling into place. I had an opportunity, but I didn't know if it was the right opportunity for me. I certainly had my doubts. And now, I really am running out of time and resources. I need it soon. And I am so afraid I wouldn't get it on time.