Black hole music
I survived the messiah gig. Oh it was sooooooooooo cooolllllddd.... sshhhivvveerr...
I don't like messiah that much, it's always only tutti choir for the oboes, no arias nothing interesting. Also the arias are all very looooooong and then there is still the da capo... Especially this time it was so tiring, because they had not turned up the heating in the dome! It was freezing cold sitting there for three. The conductor was more like a police man conducting the traffic. No emotions, no dynamics...so boring. Yes, I am so spoiled now after having played with Ton Koopman. I wasn't able to look at that guy, and yes I feel guilty of not having been able to play my best and serve the music. It's frustrating me, but it was sucking me into the black hole...
I want to see the next episode of GossipGorl, but I can't find it on the web. This is so cold turkey for me, I need my GossipGirl!!!! I can do without 90210 for some time, but never without my beloved Chuck and Blair. For me it's so refreshing to watch these series, it's45min per week beeing in a parellel universe I might never belong to in real life.
I have an audition soon, better said I applied for one with baroque oboe and recorder, but they didn't answer yet, I hope they will invite me, they have to! My c.v. is perfect for baroque oboe.... And I'd love to go to France for a month of work next year....
My baroque oboe is still in some trouble, therefore I ordered a new topjoint, hopefully I'll get it soon and it better be good. Tomorrow I have the first lesson of the semester, but I couldn't practise for myself over the last weeks... the tour and teaching and this weekends horror gig were so time consuming. I feel so exhausted. I am sad, that I did a lot of work for all people around me, but did not find enough time spent for the things being important to myself. It's hard to realize, that I am for 90% no student anymore, which means I am not in the situation anymore of being able to practise solo stuff for 4 hours per day... And I am still struggeling to find a balance between my three jobs: freelance musician, music teacher, student in the Meisterklasse (and therefore expected to play the highst soloist program in the exams..)
People here are also not my taste, I mean the oboes, it's too much competion... C. and so... Today I just don't know how I will ever being able to survive in the freelance jungle, I am already confused in the college jungle... Jungle is not the right place for a squirrel ;-)
I don't like messiah that much, it's always only tutti choir for the oboes, no arias nothing interesting. Also the arias are all very looooooong and then there is still the da capo... Especially this time it was so tiring, because they had not turned up the heating in the dome! It was freezing cold sitting there for three. The conductor was more like a police man conducting the traffic. No emotions, no dynamics...so boring. Yes, I am so spoiled now after having played with Ton Koopman. I wasn't able to look at that guy, and yes I feel guilty of not having been able to play my best and serve the music. It's frustrating me, but it was sucking me into the black hole...
I want to see the next episode of GossipGorl, but I can't find it on the web. This is so cold turkey for me, I need my GossipGirl!!!! I can do without 90210 for some time, but never without my beloved Chuck and Blair. For me it's so refreshing to watch these series, it's45min per week beeing in a parellel universe I might never belong to in real life.
I have an audition soon, better said I applied for one with baroque oboe and recorder, but they didn't answer yet, I hope they will invite me, they have to! My c.v. is perfect for baroque oboe.... And I'd love to go to France for a month of work next year....
My baroque oboe is still in some trouble, therefore I ordered a new topjoint, hopefully I'll get it soon and it better be good. Tomorrow I have the first lesson of the semester, but I couldn't practise for myself over the last weeks... the tour and teaching and this weekends horror gig were so time consuming. I feel so exhausted. I am sad, that I did a lot of work for all people around me, but did not find enough time spent for the things being important to myself. It's hard to realize, that I am for 90% no student anymore, which means I am not in the situation anymore of being able to practise solo stuff for 4 hours per day... And I am still struggeling to find a balance between my three jobs: freelance musician, music teacher, student in the Meisterklasse (and therefore expected to play the highst soloist program in the exams..)
People here are also not my taste, I mean the oboes, it's too much competion... C. and so... Today I just don't know how I will ever being able to survive in the freelance jungle, I am already confused in the college jungle... Jungle is not the right place for a squirrel ;-)