My Shy Boy(:
So...
This day was absolutely long and tiring.
Like, you have no idea.
This morning felt like yesterday.
Yeah. That's how long the day was.
So I woke up at 6-7 in the morning to get ready for my final exams.
I've been studying my butt off for the two classes that I have exams in: Algebra II and Civics Honors.
Crazy and long day, if you ask me.
But the most crazy is probably last night.
so last night, I was talking with Emi.
And she was telling me about how I need to get over Will.
So I told her that there could be some options.
and I'm still working on it that even Matt (Not civics Matt, the other Matt) wants me to get over him so badly that HE'S contributing to me getting over him.
He's going to make sure I don't text him, facebook him, or have any contact to him whatsoever.
I deserve it.
i need to get over him as soon as possible.
This time, I'm even willing to rip him out of my mind if I have to.
but yeahh....
So I told Emi this, and here's how our conversation generally went...
Emi: Stephanie, we need to do something about you and your Will problem.
Me: Yeah. Even Matt wants me to get over him.
Emi: I need to find you someoneee!
(few hours later)
Me: Emi~ remember about that Frank guy you told me about?
Emi: Yeahhhh
Me: You still interested in him?
Emi: YEAH. He's hot. :D
Me: What if I told you me and Matt (Civics Matt, this time) are working to get you a date with him?
Emi: NOOOOOOOOOOO. I'm still interested in N.
Me: Come ONN. You have this opportunity and yet you want to let it down like this?!
Emi: come with me?
Me: Of course!
Emi: .... maybe. We'll see.
(next day...)
Emi: stephanieee!
Me: what?
Emi: ALBERTOOO!!
Me: Whaa? What about him?
Emi: you should go out with him!
Me: WHAT?! No wayyy! We're just friends!
Emi: come onnn~ you guys would be cute togetherrr! you said he was a little cute, didn't you?
Me: Yeah, but... we're just chill friends!
Emi: we should just see if he's willing to go out with you if he doesss(:
Me: Smh... -______-"
Yeahhh... so it turns out my friend is trying to set me up with one of the underclass friends of mine.
Like, he's cool. he's cute. I adore him and his amazing accent to DEATH.
but we're just good friends. Nothing more(:
I'm sure, I guess, if he said he has interest in me, I'm sure I'd give him a try.
but I don't know.
I have to wait until the actual situation on him saying "sue, I like you" comes out.
Then I guess I'd have to see how I react to it and see where it goes from there.
He's not that tall, and I've only see him as a friend.
I absolutely can not imagine being with him in a relationship.
I never have considered it, and I'm still unsure about it.
I'm trying so hard right now if I can imagine being with him...
But I can imagine myself being with my long-term friend Brendon than being with Alberto.
Truly sincerely honest.
let me be honest with you.
I do have dreams of where I've been with Brendon in a "serious relationship".
Some of the dreams are just plain utterly shocking.
like, I'm not going to say what the dreams were about (because then people would look at me funny), but let's just say some of them left me... uhhh...
Lmaooo. I think that's a big enough of a hint right there. xD
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So, today, I woke up at 6-7 in the morning because of studying.
I went to the Algebra EOC review, and that was BORING.
It was warm in the class and the teacher just started sounding monotone.
she made the lesson unamusing, and when the class DOES laugh, I miss the joke.
so the rest of the time I've been sleeping, practically.
But the most fun I've had was probably in the civics EOC review.
I saw Matt (Civics Matt) and Michelle and we went to the civics class together.
However, the one we went to was ABSOLUTELY full, but all the students who were in our Civics class was there.
Andrew was there (yahh. The cute one.)
And when he saw our reaction to the full classroom, he laughed and said 'you could go to coach baily's class. I heard he's going to do Bingo(;'
So in the end I was just like, "let's go to coach Bailey's class".
but we had no idea where we were going, so we were just wandering around the hall and trying to find out where things were.
And it turns out, we ran into a teacher and he was Coach Bailey!
He was AMAZING.
Much more amazing than our teacher!!
He just taught us the basic stuff we needed to know that was going to be on the EOC.
I'm definitely going to remember that guy :D
And our family is having a hard time struggling through something.
It turns out, my great grandmother passed away.
It's really sad, because she's been there with me my whole life.
And she's taught me everything I knew, pretty much.
But I healed quickly, shockingly.
Because I knew...
My grandmother was extremely sick.
I knew, if she was to be alive even longer, it wasn't going to make much of a difference because she's suffering through. She's in a better place, and I know it. She couldn't see me at all because we were in two separate countries. Now, she can watch us everyday and make sure we're being good. Maybe I should work harder in my studies, because I know she's going to be watching me, and I want to make sure she's proud of her great-granddaughter(:
I knew she loved me, and she knew I loved her.
She's always going to be in my heart: loved, and missed every single day. ♥
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So it turns out Matt still likes me.
You know, and that's okay with me(:
Because I know he's a great guy.
He may be 2 months younger than me, but he treats me like a little sister.
And I never had anyone treat me like that.
Not even my oppa cousins treated me the way he does!!
He actually shows concern and understands me.
A lot better than I thought he was going to. :D
But that's all I see him as.
I can't imagine being in a relationship with him.
I mean... idkk.
I just don't see it.
He may, but I don't.
That makes me feel soooo badd!!
I feel like I'm letting everyone down... ):
/01.07.2011♥