Oh, Thoughtful Me...5
Today was a pretty weird day.
I can't really describe what it was like.
I guess I've decided to move on...
Well, not move on, but just step a little back and let fate do its job.
If I force it, what will it do?
You know?
I'll find someone eventually.
Someone caring, someone special.
Someone who will be there for me.
(Unilke the other 2 that I've liked.)
And it turns out my last ex boyfriend has a girlfriend.
... And I KNOW her.
And the weirdest part is...
SHE'S A SENIOR.
Seriously?!
I had no idea... :\
How can he have game?
Well. He's cute.
but still.... a senior?!
But anyways....
I need to carry as if I never liked them.
As if I never thought of liking them.
I'll just be there, as a friend.
Just someone who will be there for them, and just see where things go from there.
Yeahh... that sounds like a good plan.
I can still be there for them, right?
But seriously....
Maybe I was just too anxious to get a guy.
Just too anticipated to see the guys that I like(d).
But I was just joking myself.
From now on, I need to make sure that I move on, and wait for a guy to be there FOR me.
I don't want to do all the work anymore.
I want to make sure there is a guy out there who is willing to be there for me.
Not the other way around.
And the same thing goes for those out there who happen to stumble onto this journal.
Make sure you don't chase after guys
Let them go after you.
Because it lets you know that they really do want to get to know you.
Who knows?
There may be someone out there who does like you, but they just don't wanna tell you.
So don't underestimate yourself.
Because people have seen your true side.
They just need to learn to accept it(: