[MINI-SERIES] Tora/Saga: "Beautiful Sinners" Part 1
Title: Beautiful Sinners
Chapter: 1/5
Author: junakabisque
Rating: Overall NC-17
Genre: Angst, romance.
Pairing(s): Tora/Saga, Reita/Uruha (mentioned Reita/Saga, Tora/Uruha).
Band(s): Alice Nine, the GazettE.
Disclaimer: I own my imagination.
Summary: Tora breaks up with Uruha because he loves Saga; but Saga is already with Reita. What will happen to four of them?
Notes: Set before Alice Nine changed leader.
...Beautiful Sinners...
Part 1
“Is everything done, Saga?”
“Yup. Let’s go, Reita.”
Saga stood up, walking towards Reita who was waiting for him at the door. The practice had ended fifteen minutes ago. Now, Reita and Saga were going to have dinner together. When Saga reached the door, Nao called him out.
“Saga, chotto matte.”
“Hai, Nao?”
“I just remember that Tora has left his music sheets here. Can you help me to give them back to him?”
“But, Nao. Reita and I-”
“It’s okay, Saga. Our dinner can wait,” Reita said as he smiled at Saga.
Saga then pouted his lips at his lover, “Reita~ you’re so mean. I’m really hungry.”
“Okay, okay. We will have our dinner first, and then you can go to Tora’s place to give the music sheets back to him. How does it sound to you?”
The pout disappeared, replaced by a wide smile on Saga’s lips. Saga nodded obediently and after that, he walked back to get the music sheets from Nao. Before they left, Nao explained to them that he couldn’t give the music sheets to Tora by himself because he had something to do with their manager. Saga then remembered that all leaders of the bands had to gather in manager’s room after the practice ended.
“That’s why I ask you to help me, Saga. Well, you know that Shou and Hiroto will always be the first who leave after practice. I have no idea why they always look in a hurry like that, though.”
“I understand, Nao. Okay, I’ll give them back to Tora. Now, jaa na, Nao.”
“Jaa...”
After Saga shoved the music sheets inside his bass case, he and Reita exited the room. Nao saw Reita interlace his fingers with Saga’s before they finally disappeared from Nao’s sight.
***
Tora threw his glass onto the floor, looking really angry. He stood up, stepping forward to the other guitarist.
“When I say it’s over, it’s really over.”
“Stop saying it, Tora! I don’t want to hear it anymore! I don’t want to break up with you!”
“But I do want to break up with you, Uruha!”
Uruha couldn’t hold his tears back anymore. He also lost his temper as he tilted his head to the side, searching for something that he could throw. Then, he grabbed a flower vase from the small table beside him and threw it towards Tora. Tora looked surprised by Uruha’s action as he stepped aside, evading the vase that flew in his direction. The vase broke into pieces as it smashed against the floor. Before Tora could prevent Uruha from throwing things to him again, Uruha had already grabbed many things and threw them to him. Uruha looked really angry and sad. The tears kept rolling down his smooth cheeks.
“Fuck! Uruha, stop!”
“Never! Unless you say you love me and won’t break up with me, I will never stop!”
“You’re crazy, Uruha! You have no idea what you’re doing right now!”
“Yes, I’m crazy about you! Are you satisfied? You’re the one who made me fall in love with you! Are you happy seeing me like this, Tora?!
After you succeeded in making me fall for you, and then you want to ruin my life by breaking up with me. So easily! You did it on purpose, Tora! You do want to fuck up my life!”
“What did you say, huh!? Are you saying that I’m a bastard who wants to ruin your life?!”
“You have already done it!”
“Enough! I don’t want to see you anymore! Get out of here!”
“NO! I’m staying here! I won’t leave!”
“I said, get out!”
Meanwhile outside Tora’s flat, Saga had already arrived there. He came alone. Reita couldn’t give him a ride to Tora’s apartment block because he suddenly got a phone call from Kai, telling him to go back to PS Company building as soon as possible. Kai said that it was urgent and Reita couldn’t say no, of course. Saga was kind enough to let Reita leave and said that he could go to Tora’s apartment block by himself. Now, Saga was standing in front of Tora’s flat door, was about to press the doorbell when he heard Tora’s voice shouting at someone from inside. Panicking, Saga quickly opened the door without even bothering to press the doorbell first. What he found inside surprised him. Tora’s living room was messed up by many broken stuff. In the centre of the room, Tora and Uruha were facing each other. Tora’s face flushed red because of his anger and Uruha’s was wet by tears. Saga then realised that they were having an argument right now.
“Ano... I’m sorry; I’ve come in a wrong time. I’m leaving now.”
“Saga, wait.”
Saga stopped. He turned around again and now looked really confused. He didn’t know what to do. What did Tora want, anyway? Why did he prevent Saga from leaving? Saga started biting his lip nervously. Saga caught Uruha glaring at him as Tora stepped closer to him.
“Tora, I should better leave now. Can I?”
Tora didn’t say anything. Instead, he took Saga’s hand and then pulled him until they faced Uruha again. Tora stared at Uruha coldly as he said, “I don’t love you anymore, Uruha. Do you want to know why?”
“... Why?” Uruha asked back with his tiny voice.
Saga then saw Tora cast a smirk and without warning, the guitarist leant down to him. Saga was so surprised; he could do nothing when Tora kissed him on the lips. His eyes widened very instantly. He wanted to break the kiss, but Tora held him tightly. Saga heard Uruha gasp and then he struggled to break the kiss. He pushed Tora back forcefully until finally, the guitarist released him. He quickly opened his mouth to explain everything to Uruha.
“Uruha-san, I-”
Tora stopped Saga’s words by pushing him back. He now stood in-between Saga and Uruha.
“Do you understand now, Uruha? I don’t love you anymore because I lov-”
“Stop.”
Uruha lifted both of his hands up to cover his ears. He closed his eyes too and Saga could see that Uruha looked really hurt right now. Nevertheless, Tora kept talking, “I love Saga.”
“I said, stop! I don’t want to hear it!”
“I know you’ve heard it, Uruha. Now, I want you to leave my apartment. Get out!”
“I hate you, Tora! I really hate you!”
“Oh, I’m glad to hear that.”
Wiping his tears away, Uruha grabbed all his belongings and then walked approaching the door. Before he left, he turned around again. He stared at Tora and Saga distastefully, “We’ll see, Tora. I swear I will get my revenge!”
“Do it! I’m not afraid of you, bitch!”
With a loud bang, the door closed. They could hear Uruha’s steps walking away from Tora’s flat. When they were sure Uruha had really left, Saga turned to face Tora.
“You’re lying, aren’t you? I know you did it because you just wanted to make him sad. You don’t love me, Tora.”
“If I really do, what will you say?”
“You...” Saga sighed. He knew he must stay calm, “... I have Reita, Tora. You do know that too.”
Tora just stayed silent after that. Minutes later, Tora moved from his spot. He threw himself down on the sofa as he took a bottle of sake in front of him. Saga didn’t know what to do now. He looked down at his bass case and remembered that he was here now in order to give the music sheets back to Tora. Saga then opened his bass case and pulled out the music sheets.
“Tora, I’m here to give these back to you. You left them in the practice room.”
Tora didn’t reply. He took another glass of sake and poured the liquid into the glass. He lifted the glass up to his mouth and then sipped the content down his throat. Saga was just eyeing him in silence. Then, he stepped towards the table as he put the music sheets down on it.
“I put these here. I have to go now. Bye, Tora.”
“Stay here, please.”
Saga couldn’t say no when he saw Tora’s gaze on him. The guitarist was looking at him with a sad expression Saga had never seen before.
***
Uruha didn’t know where he had run. After leaving Tora’s apartment block, he just ran and ran aimlessly. The dried stream of tears was still visible on his face. He was really angry right now. Angry and sad. All he wanted to do now was to punch someone. Uruha then fell onto the ground when he felt weak on his legs. He knew he couldn’t run anymore. Uruha sat on the ground and he started crying again. To be honest, he needed someone to comfort him right now. He knew who could comfort him. It was only one person. Uruha fished his mobile phone out and flipped it open. He wanted to call him. He waited for a while until the person he was calling answered. Seconds later...
“Moshi-moshi, Uruha?”
“... Akira... I really need you right now. I want to meet you, Akira.”
“Eh? But... Uru-Shima, are you okay?”
“I am not okay, Akira. I just want to meet you, for God’s sake! Can’t you just come here now!?”
“Where are you? I will go to your place now.”
Uruha looked around to see where he was at precisely. He couldn’t figure out where, though.
“... Shima?”
“I... I don’t know. I don’t know where I am, Akira.”
Uruha heard him curse silently.
“Stay in your place, Shima. Don’t go anywhere. I’ll be there soon.”
Then, he hung up.
~*~
In Tora’s flat, Saga was sitting beside Tora on the sofa. The guitarist now leant his head on Saga’s shoulder. He sure was really drunk. Saga stopped Tora when he was about to drink another glass of sake.
“Enough, Tora. You will just regret it in the morning.”
Tora obeyed Saga. He now pulled his legs up and snuggled up closer to Saga. Saga couldn’t help but allow Tora to hug him. He knew he must stop it now before the situation became more complicated. However, Saga couldn’t just leave Tora alone in his current state.
“Tora... Do you want to sleep? You can’t sleep here, Tora.”
Tora didn’t answer. Instead, he tightened his embrace to Saga. At the same time, Saga felt his mobile phone vibrate. Saga fished it out from his jeans pocket. He got a text message from Reita. Reita told him that he had something important to do right now and he couldn’t pick Saga up from Tora’s place. Saga sighed and then decided to reply it. However, Tora suddenly grabbed Saga’s mobile phone from his hand and threw it to the coffee table. The action surprised Saga.
“Tora? What are you doing?!”
“Just leave it alone.”
“Tora, it was from Reita. I just want to tell him-”
“Reita this, Reita that. Fuck Reita! Do you always think of him, Saga?!”
“Tora? I... I really don’t understand.”
“You don’t understand? You...”
Tora laughed aloud all of a sudden. Saga watched him half-nervous, half-confused.
“You really are drunk, Tora.”
“I am not!”
“You are, Tora! Come on, go to your bedroom.”
Saga stood up and then took Tora’s hand, forcing him to stand up as well. Tora then stood up and followed Saga, heading to his own bedroom. After they entered Tora’s bedroom, Saga released Tora’s hand and stepped forward to Tora’s bed to make the bed. When he was doing that with his back facing Tora, Saga didn’t notice that Tora had been staring at him as he leant back against the closed door. Tora didn’t know why he suddenly felt strange inside his stomach. The man in front him was the only man he had always been dreaming of. How Tora really wanted to touch him, but he couldn’t because he had already belonged to someone else. Saga belonged to Reita. Tora hated it. He hated the fact that he had lost from Reita. If only he was the one who confessed to Saga first and not Reita... Would the situation be like this now? Tora wouldn’t have accepted Uruha’s confession if only he moved faster than Reita. He always knew that he had never loved Uruha. Uruha was just a substitute of Saga. Nevertheless, Tora also knew that Saga was irreplaceable. No one could replace him. All Tora always wanted was only Saga. Tora would do anything just to have Saga for him alone. Now, when Tora was alone with Saga in his own bedroom, why didn’t he use the chance? Unbeknownst to Saga, Tora locked the door behind him. He was still on his spot as he spoke to Saga, “Saga... Have you ever loved me?”
-TBC-
Part 2
Chapter: 1/5
Author: junakabisque
Rating: Overall NC-17
Genre: Angst, romance.
Pairing(s): Tora/Saga, Reita/Uruha (mentioned Reita/Saga, Tora/Uruha).
Band(s): Alice Nine, the GazettE.
Disclaimer: I own my imagination.
Summary: Tora breaks up with Uruha because he loves Saga; but Saga is already with Reita. What will happen to four of them?
Notes: Set before Alice Nine changed leader.
...Beautiful Sinners...
Part 1
“Is everything done, Saga?”
“Yup. Let’s go, Reita.”
Saga stood up, walking towards Reita who was waiting for him at the door. The practice had ended fifteen minutes ago. Now, Reita and Saga were going to have dinner together. When Saga reached the door, Nao called him out.
“Saga, chotto matte.”
“Hai, Nao?”
“I just remember that Tora has left his music sheets here. Can you help me to give them back to him?”
“But, Nao. Reita and I-”
“It’s okay, Saga. Our dinner can wait,” Reita said as he smiled at Saga.
Saga then pouted his lips at his lover, “Reita~ you’re so mean. I’m really hungry.”
“Okay, okay. We will have our dinner first, and then you can go to Tora’s place to give the music sheets back to him. How does it sound to you?”
The pout disappeared, replaced by a wide smile on Saga’s lips. Saga nodded obediently and after that, he walked back to get the music sheets from Nao. Before they left, Nao explained to them that he couldn’t give the music sheets to Tora by himself because he had something to do with their manager. Saga then remembered that all leaders of the bands had to gather in manager’s room after the practice ended.
“That’s why I ask you to help me, Saga. Well, you know that Shou and Hiroto will always be the first who leave after practice. I have no idea why they always look in a hurry like that, though.”
“I understand, Nao. Okay, I’ll give them back to Tora. Now, jaa na, Nao.”
“Jaa...”
After Saga shoved the music sheets inside his bass case, he and Reita exited the room. Nao saw Reita interlace his fingers with Saga’s before they finally disappeared from Nao’s sight.
***
Tora threw his glass onto the floor, looking really angry. He stood up, stepping forward to the other guitarist.
“When I say it’s over, it’s really over.”
“Stop saying it, Tora! I don’t want to hear it anymore! I don’t want to break up with you!”
“But I do want to break up with you, Uruha!”
Uruha couldn’t hold his tears back anymore. He also lost his temper as he tilted his head to the side, searching for something that he could throw. Then, he grabbed a flower vase from the small table beside him and threw it towards Tora. Tora looked surprised by Uruha’s action as he stepped aside, evading the vase that flew in his direction. The vase broke into pieces as it smashed against the floor. Before Tora could prevent Uruha from throwing things to him again, Uruha had already grabbed many things and threw them to him. Uruha looked really angry and sad. The tears kept rolling down his smooth cheeks.
“Fuck! Uruha, stop!”
“Never! Unless you say you love me and won’t break up with me, I will never stop!”
“You’re crazy, Uruha! You have no idea what you’re doing right now!”
“Yes, I’m crazy about you! Are you satisfied? You’re the one who made me fall in love with you! Are you happy seeing me like this, Tora?!
After you succeeded in making me fall for you, and then you want to ruin my life by breaking up with me. So easily! You did it on purpose, Tora! You do want to fuck up my life!”
“What did you say, huh!? Are you saying that I’m a bastard who wants to ruin your life?!”
“You have already done it!”
“Enough! I don’t want to see you anymore! Get out of here!”
“NO! I’m staying here! I won’t leave!”
“I said, get out!”
Meanwhile outside Tora’s flat, Saga had already arrived there. He came alone. Reita couldn’t give him a ride to Tora’s apartment block because he suddenly got a phone call from Kai, telling him to go back to PS Company building as soon as possible. Kai said that it was urgent and Reita couldn’t say no, of course. Saga was kind enough to let Reita leave and said that he could go to Tora’s apartment block by himself. Now, Saga was standing in front of Tora’s flat door, was about to press the doorbell when he heard Tora’s voice shouting at someone from inside. Panicking, Saga quickly opened the door without even bothering to press the doorbell first. What he found inside surprised him. Tora’s living room was messed up by many broken stuff. In the centre of the room, Tora and Uruha were facing each other. Tora’s face flushed red because of his anger and Uruha’s was wet by tears. Saga then realised that they were having an argument right now.
“Ano... I’m sorry; I’ve come in a wrong time. I’m leaving now.”
“Saga, wait.”
Saga stopped. He turned around again and now looked really confused. He didn’t know what to do. What did Tora want, anyway? Why did he prevent Saga from leaving? Saga started biting his lip nervously. Saga caught Uruha glaring at him as Tora stepped closer to him.
“Tora, I should better leave now. Can I?”
Tora didn’t say anything. Instead, he took Saga’s hand and then pulled him until they faced Uruha again. Tora stared at Uruha coldly as he said, “I don’t love you anymore, Uruha. Do you want to know why?”
“... Why?” Uruha asked back with his tiny voice.
Saga then saw Tora cast a smirk and without warning, the guitarist leant down to him. Saga was so surprised; he could do nothing when Tora kissed him on the lips. His eyes widened very instantly. He wanted to break the kiss, but Tora held him tightly. Saga heard Uruha gasp and then he struggled to break the kiss. He pushed Tora back forcefully until finally, the guitarist released him. He quickly opened his mouth to explain everything to Uruha.
“Uruha-san, I-”
Tora stopped Saga’s words by pushing him back. He now stood in-between Saga and Uruha.
“Do you understand now, Uruha? I don’t love you anymore because I lov-”
“Stop.”
Uruha lifted both of his hands up to cover his ears. He closed his eyes too and Saga could see that Uruha looked really hurt right now. Nevertheless, Tora kept talking, “I love Saga.”
“I said, stop! I don’t want to hear it!”
“I know you’ve heard it, Uruha. Now, I want you to leave my apartment. Get out!”
“I hate you, Tora! I really hate you!”
“Oh, I’m glad to hear that.”
Wiping his tears away, Uruha grabbed all his belongings and then walked approaching the door. Before he left, he turned around again. He stared at Tora and Saga distastefully, “We’ll see, Tora. I swear I will get my revenge!”
“Do it! I’m not afraid of you, bitch!”
With a loud bang, the door closed. They could hear Uruha’s steps walking away from Tora’s flat. When they were sure Uruha had really left, Saga turned to face Tora.
“You’re lying, aren’t you? I know you did it because you just wanted to make him sad. You don’t love me, Tora.”
“If I really do, what will you say?”
“You...” Saga sighed. He knew he must stay calm, “... I have Reita, Tora. You do know that too.”
Tora just stayed silent after that. Minutes later, Tora moved from his spot. He threw himself down on the sofa as he took a bottle of sake in front of him. Saga didn’t know what to do now. He looked down at his bass case and remembered that he was here now in order to give the music sheets back to Tora. Saga then opened his bass case and pulled out the music sheets.
“Tora, I’m here to give these back to you. You left them in the practice room.”
Tora didn’t reply. He took another glass of sake and poured the liquid into the glass. He lifted the glass up to his mouth and then sipped the content down his throat. Saga was just eyeing him in silence. Then, he stepped towards the table as he put the music sheets down on it.
“I put these here. I have to go now. Bye, Tora.”
“Stay here, please.”
Saga couldn’t say no when he saw Tora’s gaze on him. The guitarist was looking at him with a sad expression Saga had never seen before.
***
Uruha didn’t know where he had run. After leaving Tora’s apartment block, he just ran and ran aimlessly. The dried stream of tears was still visible on his face. He was really angry right now. Angry and sad. All he wanted to do now was to punch someone. Uruha then fell onto the ground when he felt weak on his legs. He knew he couldn’t run anymore. Uruha sat on the ground and he started crying again. To be honest, he needed someone to comfort him right now. He knew who could comfort him. It was only one person. Uruha fished his mobile phone out and flipped it open. He wanted to call him. He waited for a while until the person he was calling answered. Seconds later...
“Moshi-moshi, Uruha?”
“... Akira... I really need you right now. I want to meet you, Akira.”
“Eh? But... Uru-Shima, are you okay?”
“I am not okay, Akira. I just want to meet you, for God’s sake! Can’t you just come here now!?”
“Where are you? I will go to your place now.”
Uruha looked around to see where he was at precisely. He couldn’t figure out where, though.
“... Shima?”
“I... I don’t know. I don’t know where I am, Akira.”
Uruha heard him curse silently.
“Stay in your place, Shima. Don’t go anywhere. I’ll be there soon.”
Then, he hung up.
~*~
In Tora’s flat, Saga was sitting beside Tora on the sofa. The guitarist now leant his head on Saga’s shoulder. He sure was really drunk. Saga stopped Tora when he was about to drink another glass of sake.
“Enough, Tora. You will just regret it in the morning.”
Tora obeyed Saga. He now pulled his legs up and snuggled up closer to Saga. Saga couldn’t help but allow Tora to hug him. He knew he must stop it now before the situation became more complicated. However, Saga couldn’t just leave Tora alone in his current state.
“Tora... Do you want to sleep? You can’t sleep here, Tora.”
Tora didn’t answer. Instead, he tightened his embrace to Saga. At the same time, Saga felt his mobile phone vibrate. Saga fished it out from his jeans pocket. He got a text message from Reita. Reita told him that he had something important to do right now and he couldn’t pick Saga up from Tora’s place. Saga sighed and then decided to reply it. However, Tora suddenly grabbed Saga’s mobile phone from his hand and threw it to the coffee table. The action surprised Saga.
“Tora? What are you doing?!”
“Just leave it alone.”
“Tora, it was from Reita. I just want to tell him-”
“Reita this, Reita that. Fuck Reita! Do you always think of him, Saga?!”
“Tora? I... I really don’t understand.”
“You don’t understand? You...”
Tora laughed aloud all of a sudden. Saga watched him half-nervous, half-confused.
“You really are drunk, Tora.”
“I am not!”
“You are, Tora! Come on, go to your bedroom.”
Saga stood up and then took Tora’s hand, forcing him to stand up as well. Tora then stood up and followed Saga, heading to his own bedroom. After they entered Tora’s bedroom, Saga released Tora’s hand and stepped forward to Tora’s bed to make the bed. When he was doing that with his back facing Tora, Saga didn’t notice that Tora had been staring at him as he leant back against the closed door. Tora didn’t know why he suddenly felt strange inside his stomach. The man in front him was the only man he had always been dreaming of. How Tora really wanted to touch him, but he couldn’t because he had already belonged to someone else. Saga belonged to Reita. Tora hated it. He hated the fact that he had lost from Reita. If only he was the one who confessed to Saga first and not Reita... Would the situation be like this now? Tora wouldn’t have accepted Uruha’s confession if only he moved faster than Reita. He always knew that he had never loved Uruha. Uruha was just a substitute of Saga. Nevertheless, Tora also knew that Saga was irreplaceable. No one could replace him. All Tora always wanted was only Saga. Tora would do anything just to have Saga for him alone. Now, when Tora was alone with Saga in his own bedroom, why didn’t he use the chance? Unbeknownst to Saga, Tora locked the door behind him. He was still on his spot as he spoke to Saga, “Saga... Have you ever loved me?”
-TBC-
Part 2