the weekend of bliss and new things
hey well life is going much better. i'm still dealing with drifting away from God and what i'm gonna do about it. and honestly part of me doesn't want to do anything and just let me fall. back into what i used to be. because i've forgotten what it's like to hit the bottom. and maybe i need to be that broken so that i can rebuild from nothing. i've been broken a lot this year and i've tried to rebuild only to get knocked apart again so maybe i need to be completely broken then start over new. i don't know....
anyway last weekend was soo amazing. ale brent panda brian and groty came up to my cabin. we had soo much fun. i never knew that we could actually have that much fun at my cabin. we went and got ice cream, went to see fireworks, had a bonfire, i drove them around the property too... cause well you just have to and we did some other stuff. i really needed this weekend. we all were so relaxed around each other and could just be ourselves. it was liberating... haha... ;) anyway it was nice not to have to worry about what people thought of you or how they would react if you did something. it was just a bunch of kids hanging out. we really need to do it again before we all go back to school.
i'm so thankful for the friends i have. i don't know what i would do without them. each one has something unique about them, and because of it they make me grow and become a better person. they are amazing people. and i don't think i tell them how much they mean to me enough. they really are my family. they are the ones i go to for help with anything and everything.and i can talk to them at any time.. they are always there for me. without them i don't know where i would be.
anyway last weekend was soo amazing. ale brent panda brian and groty came up to my cabin. we had soo much fun. i never knew that we could actually have that much fun at my cabin. we went and got ice cream, went to see fireworks, had a bonfire, i drove them around the property too... cause well you just have to and we did some other stuff. i really needed this weekend. we all were so relaxed around each other and could just be ourselves. it was liberating... haha... ;) anyway it was nice not to have to worry about what people thought of you or how they would react if you did something. it was just a bunch of kids hanging out. we really need to do it again before we all go back to school.
i'm so thankful for the friends i have. i don't know what i would do without them. each one has something unique about them, and because of it they make me grow and become a better person. they are amazing people. and i don't think i tell them how much they mean to me enough. they really are my family. they are the ones i go to for help with anything and everything.and i can talk to them at any time.. they are always there for me. without them i don't know where i would be.