Meh is in love once again...
Art by Mall
Great, now I have to deal with a whole new BIG STUFF!
What am I gonna do?
I know too well that this is just so wrong...it really is wrong...but I can't help.
I couldn't help!
Gosh I REALLY AM LOST NOW!
I dunno what to do anymore...damn I should have foreseen this earlier. Now I guess it's too late for regretting.
Too late. Damn.
I can't get his image outta my mind anymore.
It sucks!
But it's wonderful, somehow...*sighs* Okay, I admit that I like this feelings. Mouuu....I mean, well, it feels good, and I haven't felt this way towards anyone for so long. Since that day...
Forget it. Right now I only wanna talk about him. Him him him!!!!!!
We've known each other for about 5 months. We're like, close friends...We can talk about everything. And drawing. And Punk.
And Lavi.
Yes, Lavi. We love him. Almost the same level. For the first time of my life, I found a guy who loves Lavi as much as I do. I can't be happier.
Lately I'd thought he'd got mad at me, and I was fallen to the state of depression. Then I tried my best to talk to him, and got to know he never did.
I couldn't be happier.
I can't be happier.
I've realized, that, there's been something, someone...in my heart...
I find myself happy and sad and hyper and down all the same, once again. I can be happy, and get upset one second later. Gosh I'm so scared of this feelings, it almost killed me once.
But I couldn't care less anymore.
It will be over soon, probably...but it doesn't mean I can stop now. I can't, and I won't take a step backward, because there's only one way for me, and it's to keep moving forward. I know, I know it will hurt, a lot, however I won't regret, I'm not gonna regret. I will go on with this feeling, alone, then.
Don't like me, whatever you think, because I will be harsh.
Don't love me, whoever you are, because I will be cruel.
Because my heart has been taken away. My loving heart.
A half of it is for Lavi.
And the other, is for him.
P/S: I was just talking about my loving heart. Of course I love my family and my dear friends more than anything ^^
