Scarlet...
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Okay, another water-colored picture of my dearest beloved Lavi. Happy belated Halloween to you!
I know it's a failure. I even wanted to throw it away...
It was supposed to be my return.
I thought I'd get over it soon.
I thought I'd smile easily, again.
I thought drawing would lighten up my gloomy days.
I was wrong.
I cried when I was drawing this.
Drawing reminds me of everything...
that I've lost.
And my Art teacher...3 years...it's been 3 years...
Every time I drew, I was always so excited to show him my work, cuz he would always appreciate it, and give me compliments, and support, and advice. He taught me everything I need, and all, and I would have known nothing without him.
But not anymore. Not anymore...
It still hurts...like hell...
I don't know what to do anymore.
Without drawing, I'll die.
But drawing hurts me.
Still hurts...
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And Lavi, I'm sorry for what I've done to you. I'm sorry. But you're my endless inspiration and ceaseless love.
I love you.
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Tools: water colors and brushes
Time: 6 hours