Matt's nickname for me really does fit....
....sometimes more than i would like it to. Tonight I saw 27 Dresses with Emily and Heather, and it was a really good movie. I've always been one for love stories. However, lately movies like this have been making me sad, as well. I realized today that i'm not ok with certain things, as badly as i want to be, or even thought that maybe i was. on top of that, i'm as confused as ever about how i feel. It's times like this that I wish I could control my feelings better. So with a combination of that, and just being lonely in general, the movie just kind of got me down. I was fine being single for a while, but i was in love once, a few years ago, and i miss it. so much. i want to have that feeling of being around someone, and being just completely and utterly happy for the sole reason that i'm around them. i want to have butterflies every single time i kiss someone, no matter how many times i have kissed them. i want someone have those feelings back for me too (which apparently didn't happen the first time). I just really want to be in love and loved back, so much more than i want anything else.