cause i can't do this on my own.
alright. A LOT TO TELL.
i was doing good with this whole getting over chris thing...until i cried myself to sleep a few nights ago. i just felt so sad. i think that was wednesday night. after i saw that picture...i just lost it. it makes my heart so sad to know that i can't share my happiness with him. [i thought i had my freedom--you didn't even ask].
Well thursday was soooo gorgeous outside! i wanted to cry i was so happy. it was one of those days you just feel so lucky to be alive. i had cheerleading practice after school...and that went good. we made a rule that if you miss one practice...you can't go to competition...well we'll see how that goes. we'll end up having about 5 girls at the end. lol.
so when i got home from practice...colleen was the only one home. my dad was working late--and my mom was at the doctors. and my kidney started hurting. i mean really bad. i knew what it was right away. it was a kidney stone. so i'm like colleen---i gotta go to the emergency room RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!! honestly...i was terrified...especially without my mom or dad being there. so i had to work at 6--so i called scott--and i'm like my sister is taking me to the ER, so find someone to work for me-bye. lol. he was like--um ok. feel better. so we went out there---and they got me in right away. i had to pee in a cup & all that good stuff. they took 6 viles of blood---and i had to do it without my mom's hand to squeeze onto. it was horrible. i just cried and cried. finally the doctor came in---got me some drugs, i was better, and then colleen came in. she's like mom's on her way-she should be here in 5 minutes. i was never so happy to see my mom in my life!!! well the pain still wasn't gone-so they gave me more. then they took me in for a cat scan---my stone is 2mm...pretty small, so i should be able to pass it. then they gave me more pain killer bc they pain still wasn't gone. and i puked bc they put too much in too soon. so yeah. that was pretty gross. i was in there for 3 hours...not too bad considering all the other times its been 5 hrs. but all i could think about the whole time is chris is coming into subway to see me. and we have deca competition tomorrow...and i'm gunna let kaleigh down. i cried so hard about that. bc i felt so bad. but i really couldnt' do anything about it. so my mom called mrs. majewski and kaleigh to let them know.
i finally got home...and i couldn't even walk by myself they had me drugged up so much. i went to sleep right away. and my mom woke me up the next morning---just to double check on me---i still wasn't well enough to go. i felt HORRIBLE about the DECA thing. omg. i still feel bad. so all day i slept...and i tried to read my book for english--but i couldn't really concentrait with the medicine. so yeah. so i slept more. and i figured by 5:00 i was well enough to work....cause i was with jonas. i knew he'd take good care of me. lol. i wasn't supposed to work or drive with the meds i was on...but i need money. so went. and i was pretty out of it. chris came to see me!!! i'm so glad. it made me in such a good mood. he left---but we talked on the phone more later. me and jonas had fun though...i love him. i was home at 10--and watched tv then went to bed.
so today i got up at 11. i had to be to work at 11:30-4...with aaron boyle--the new kid. omg. he bugged the heck out of me!!!!! i couldn't take it anymore-i couldn't wait to get outta there. it was sooo depressing to see snow outside again. bc it has been so beautiul out. when i got home i showered....that felt wonderful!!! haha. then i had my cousin's wedding shower for the bridesmaids. it was awesome!! and i looked hott. lol. just kidding.
well its time for me to go to martin's with my sister...its my moms' birthday tomorrow and we gotta get some cards!!!!
<3
Julie