all i wanna do is watch the wind blow by...
well we lost the game against attica.
is that a surprise to anyone? haha.
but i got to see hott donny kircsh. omg. he's gorgeous.
annnnd i got to see my lovely teresa!!! i was soo happy to see her. it made my night. i just love her.
i got home and i watched tv with my daddy.
this morning i was exhausted.
school was fine.
notthing really exciting happend.
oh yeah---
i got into all county chorus.
go me.
kal wasn't in school again.
and i missed her.
i had to stay after for schulzey again...bc hes dumb.
then my mom took me home
i went tanning.
then i came home & took a nap b4 our game against wheatlin chili.
i had to be to school at 6:30.
i was in such a bad mood. and i'm not really sure why.
just everything was pissing me off.
mr. fatta especially. he yelled at me for not going to jazz. but ihate it...and i want to quit. and jazz is vouluntery any ways...i don't even have to do it. i just do it for ponderosa. haha.
all the girls were pissing me off too.
i just wanted to scream at them and then go cry. bc it would have made me feel so much better.
so then we had our game.
i sang the naitonal anthem.
and i did the best i've ever done.
2 ppl came up to me and said they almost started crying it was so beautiful. lol.
but we lost....i really thought we were gunna win. but. yea that didn't happen.
after my game i went to subway to visit chris. i thought he might enjoy that.
he was pretty tired...he went the day b4 to sign up for the marines. so yeah. i wish he wasn't doing that---but i can't make him decide that just on me. bc who knows whats gunna happen down the road. right?
so i was there for a while...and i'm glad i did. bc it made me in a good mood.
then i came home...
and here i am.
i've been thinking a lot tonight. and i saw a pic of chris & kaylei. and it really broke my heart. and i'm pretty much at the point where--i almost wish i had never met chris. i know that seems drastic. but...its getting so bad. and it hurts bc it feels like he doesn't even care for me in the least bit. he used to be my best friend...and my boyfriend...and its all gone. i don't even know him anymore. and i'm trying to forget---trying to make it all seem better. i'm trying to act like it doesn't bug me---but gosh darn it. it does. i'm dying inside. and they don't even care....
"i probably wouldn't be this way.
it probably wouldn't hurt so bad.
i never pictured every minute without you in it
you left so fast.
sometimes i feel you standing there.
sometimes i feel an angels touch.
sometimes i feel that i'm so lucky to have had a chance to love this much.
God give me a moments grace
cause if i'd never seen your face
i probably wouldn't be this way."
eric..thanks for cheering me up. most people can't these days.
<3
out.
a broken heart can't keep time.
is that a surprise to anyone? haha.
but i got to see hott donny kircsh. omg. he's gorgeous.
annnnd i got to see my lovely teresa!!! i was soo happy to see her. it made my night. i just love her.
i got home and i watched tv with my daddy.
this morning i was exhausted.
school was fine.
notthing really exciting happend.
oh yeah---
i got into all county chorus.
go me.
kal wasn't in school again.
and i missed her.
i had to stay after for schulzey again...bc hes dumb.
then my mom took me home
i went tanning.
then i came home & took a nap b4 our game against wheatlin chili.
i had to be to school at 6:30.
i was in such a bad mood. and i'm not really sure why.
just everything was pissing me off.
mr. fatta especially. he yelled at me for not going to jazz. but ihate it...and i want to quit. and jazz is vouluntery any ways...i don't even have to do it. i just do it for ponderosa. haha.
all the girls were pissing me off too.
i just wanted to scream at them and then go cry. bc it would have made me feel so much better.
so then we had our game.
i sang the naitonal anthem.
and i did the best i've ever done.
2 ppl came up to me and said they almost started crying it was so beautiful. lol.
but we lost....i really thought we were gunna win. but. yea that didn't happen.
after my game i went to subway to visit chris. i thought he might enjoy that.
he was pretty tired...he went the day b4 to sign up for the marines. so yeah. i wish he wasn't doing that---but i can't make him decide that just on me. bc who knows whats gunna happen down the road. right?
so i was there for a while...and i'm glad i did. bc it made me in a good mood.
then i came home...
and here i am.
i've been thinking a lot tonight. and i saw a pic of chris & kaylei. and it really broke my heart. and i'm pretty much at the point where--i almost wish i had never met chris. i know that seems drastic. but...its getting so bad. and it hurts bc it feels like he doesn't even care for me in the least bit. he used to be my best friend...and my boyfriend...and its all gone. i don't even know him anymore. and i'm trying to forget---trying to make it all seem better. i'm trying to act like it doesn't bug me---but gosh darn it. it does. i'm dying inside. and they don't even care....
"i probably wouldn't be this way.
it probably wouldn't hurt so bad.
i never pictured every minute without you in it
you left so fast.
sometimes i feel you standing there.
sometimes i feel an angels touch.
sometimes i feel that i'm so lucky to have had a chance to love this much.
God give me a moments grace
cause if i'd never seen your face
i probably wouldn't be this way."
eric..thanks for cheering me up. most people can't these days.
<3
out.
a broken heart can't keep time.