Sorry For the Wait
Hey all sorry for those who do take time to read this.
Well a lot has gone on since the last entry. Well I will summarize with this basically, my ex lied to me and had not broken up with his g/f and so when we hung out and had an awesome fourth of July together it was all a lie.... one huge lie. Then it started with e-mails from his g/f telling me stuff then a text cusing me out and then another e-mail. Finally followed by the truth coming out that he had lied to me hoping not to lose me.... yet now he may lose both me and his g/f. I cant say he didnt have it comming to him, but yet i feel bad. You know when your so close to someone that even though they hurt you so bad that seeing them hurt make you feel bad and hurt more. Well now i dont know what to think or feel or how i cant trust guys i mean seriously i seem to get lied to left and right by guys lately, i mean do i come off as someone who can be trick and my emotions played with????
OK next is i am moving to Long Beach in 2.5 weeks, man its comming fast i am looking forward to it but yet i am also scarde its a big change you know?? But it can be good meet new people and make some new friends. But also my mom is talking about moving and so it scary beacuse that means the house i have grown up the past 20 years almost 21 years will be gone, yeah i know its just a house and that i have said i wanted out. I did i really did its full of happy memories as well as sad. I dont know i feel so out of it and just not sure of so many things you know. Everything is changing, although i think the Long Beach moving is good for me right now i need it. But i will also miss my best friend Katie, someone who has been there for me through alot and for that i am thankful and extremely grateful.
I also found out from Katie when i talked to her that she is moving out and possibly in with her b/f-fiance David. Which means i dont know when we will get to see each other and hang out. Man i tell you i feel like i am slowly losing everything.... its all changing, i know change can be good but not all at once you know???
Well i think that enough for this entry... so i will talk to you all laters!!!
Well a lot has gone on since the last entry. Well I will summarize with this basically, my ex lied to me and had not broken up with his g/f and so when we hung out and had an awesome fourth of July together it was all a lie.... one huge lie. Then it started with e-mails from his g/f telling me stuff then a text cusing me out and then another e-mail. Finally followed by the truth coming out that he had lied to me hoping not to lose me.... yet now he may lose both me and his g/f. I cant say he didnt have it comming to him, but yet i feel bad. You know when your so close to someone that even though they hurt you so bad that seeing them hurt make you feel bad and hurt more. Well now i dont know what to think or feel or how i cant trust guys i mean seriously i seem to get lied to left and right by guys lately, i mean do i come off as someone who can be trick and my emotions played with????
OK next is i am moving to Long Beach in 2.5 weeks, man its comming fast i am looking forward to it but yet i am also scarde its a big change you know?? But it can be good meet new people and make some new friends. But also my mom is talking about moving and so it scary beacuse that means the house i have grown up the past 20 years almost 21 years will be gone, yeah i know its just a house and that i have said i wanted out. I did i really did its full of happy memories as well as sad. I dont know i feel so out of it and just not sure of so many things you know. Everything is changing, although i think the Long Beach moving is good for me right now i need it. But i will also miss my best friend Katie, someone who has been there for me through alot and for that i am thankful and extremely grateful.
I also found out from Katie when i talked to her that she is moving out and possibly in with her b/f-fiance David. Which means i dont know when we will get to see each other and hang out. Man i tell you i feel like i am slowly losing everything.... its all changing, i know change can be good but not all at once you know???
Well i think that enough for this entry... so i will talk to you all laters!!!