It's Me... and thats it!!
Hey well yay sorry to anywho who read this, i have been lazzy and not updating hoping i would have more to say and more exciting stuff to say. Well as you all know my awesome cousin from Washington is in California for a while and so i am happy because i can hang out with her and see her more... wooohooo. I have been house sitting this past week the family gets back tonight so i wil be home may be tonight if i am not out with my cousin in palmdale. I have one month and i am going to be offically out on my own, exciting huh?? yeah i am also like wow i am getting older moving out makes you see that you truly are getting up there. I have also been talking to my exboyfriend, yah thats been intresting. My heart is in so many places lately since i found out my co-woker who worked in the bakery/bread-wall died in a lake. Yah when you hear news that a 21 year old dies it really gets your brain going and thinking and also gets you to be thankful for a lot. It also makes me wonder about decisions i have made. And decisions i have yet to make, if they come about. But i am not sure anymore with how things are with this person. I feel like he knows exactly what to say and when but yet i feel like i get hurt, although i love him... why does it all have to be so hard why cant this all be easier to be together or walk away but no. I have to have such strong feelings, maybe i should just give up, you know because history has a way of repeating itself in my life. I don't know anymore. But yea... we want to be together but yet its not easy, i know relationship are not easy but it shouldn't be this complicated you know?? OK?? well other then that not much is going on... thats enough going on to last a while for me as for drama... well i will update soon hopefully........