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Everything is falling apart. I'm so fucking unhappy. I'm quitting Applebee's, I can't take it there anymore. I haven't gotten accepted into any colleges yet. Everything is so shitty. I have no money, I feel like shit all the time, and there's nothing I can do about because I'm stuck in high school in York with my parents. Fuck this. I'm ignored by everyone that has ever mattered to me and I am completely disconnected from my Pittsburgh friends. I can't even come home for Christmas because I'm only 18 and I live with my parents, I'm not allowed to drive there because I have to share my car with my sister and my parents still don't trust my driving abilities, and I have no money to get there by train or bus, and no one to stay with. I don't know what to do anymore.