Kissing my mouth ...
"Why dont we? Why dont we fall in love?"
Before I complain about my boyfriend, I'd like to talk about him and our fun night last night. No more of that analysis shit, I'm just going to say what happened through my rose colored glasses.
I left after work to go over to his house, and it only took ten minutes and I didn't get LOST ONCE! I was very happy about that. Then, he came outside and we walked in, and down the stairs to his room. He excitedly talked about the newest episode of "24" while I just rolled my eyes and claimed that "The OC" is THE BEST show ever. I pulled out my "let's talk about SEX baby..." mix cd. He hesistantly put it in the CD player, cuz "he didn't want the parents to hear." I was like whatev! DO it! So, he did. His parents walked into the room and I was sitting in his arms on the couch. They walked in with big smiles... "hi julia!" They remembered my name... I guess thats something. Anyhooo... They left and said they were going to bed. Basically, we just sat there for awhile talking about... sex and us. The usual. He ALMOST got me to bump up the date to August 30, but I talked about it with my security guard, and she said N-O, NO. SO, until further notice, or unless some EXTREMELY horny spells come along in the summer, the date it set. Anne said that I should tell him, "The date is going to be September 27, and if you can't wait that long, then I guess this isn't right." Or something like that. I know that's exactly what I need to say. But, I dont want to say it, because I dont want him to say no, and break up with me, just like that. That would be very hard. I could get through it obviously. It's just that this has been a different relationship for me before. Before, I'd make out with a random cute guy at a party, cuddle for the night, never see each other again. I like it that way, I get a lot of guys, get a lil bit of whatever (satisfaction), then there's no attachments. This time, I like him, and I dont want this to be a one night thing. Obviously, we are past that stage, but still, it's scary to think about. Maybe it would be good for me. Everything DOES happen for a reason.
Let me get back to the story... where was I? Well, we were on the couch and ... what were we doing? I honestly can't remember. Uhm, we were... like laying on each other, i duno. But, we fell on the floor and I was sitting on him with my legs on the side, and we were havin fun. Then we decided to go upstairs cuz he didn't want his parents to hear. Just as I was taking everything with me, my cell rang and it was Anne. I immediatly picked up and went upstairs. I sat on the couch in his computer room while he typed up some web page, and I was talking to her. While she was telling me about Jack and the whole night, Ben like jumps on me and he's sitting on me, and he like... haha, starts kissing me, while Im talking to Anne. But I had to keep pushing him away, cuz he was kissing my mouth. It was funny, I couldn't stop thinking about it today.
SIDE NOTE - Andre just called my cell, and I called him back finally, and he says, " I have some news about Ben." I just feel my throat get tight, and I feel the tears coming. "I dont want to hear anything bad Andre, I cant take anymore. I just dont want to know." He says, "Its not bad though." He was talking to his friend Lauren (or something) and she goes to Wilson, she said that she's friends with Ben, not like they talk that much, but she knows him and what's going on and everything. And, she said that he would be a really good boyfriend, and he's definetly not a player type. The second I heard this, I let out a sigh of relief and thanked Andre a million times for telling me this. I mean, this is what I've wanted to know all along, which is the opinion of someone who goes to Wilson. And hey, it was a girl, so that makes it 20 times better. Thanks to Andre, for sure. He's digging for me, protecting me from any potential assholes, which is greatly appreciated. Ok, so that's the end of that. Everybody say yay!
Back to the story... But ya, we were just talking and kissing and then his dad came up and from the stairs said, i think its time to go to bedddddd... so, we went out to my car and I sat on the drivers side facing him and we just stayed there for another half an hour talking about being spontaneous, etc etc. He really wanted me to skip biology today, but I refused. Then today, I decided I should after saying no all night. Then I called him, and he's like I cant pick you up now, cuz I didnt know you wanted to. I was like GAHH, why couldn't I make up my mind. Oh well. It's all good. Last night was very fun. Im taking Andre's advice for once, and I'm going to enjoy us, and not worry about what everyone else says, because more often than not, they're full of shit, and want to bring you down to their sad, pathetic level. No no losers, you're not bringing me down.