Oh Rhode Island College...what you do to a person
there's oone day left until college begins and I move into school. If you talked to me 3 monthes ago, i was nothing but eager to get the hell out of this town. But now that its a day away..I couldnt be anymore upset.
I miss Pookie alot. Even though she is an hour away, it seems like forever. She was my first friend when i moved to burrillville. She was the only one that didnt make fun of me for crying because I didnt know what the quiet bell meant at lunch time. Shes stuck with me through all the thick and thin throughout our years together, and it sucks that shes not around. I'm so afraid shes going to make a new best friend at college and forget all about me. She's such a great person and i dont want college to change who she is. I just want her to come home and have a sleepover with me and tanya again. i never knew college could be this hard.
Tanya...she another one. I really hope that college does not break our friendship. she is like my sister. shes the only one that when it is silent in the car, is isn't awkward. i know we will see eachother because we will be working together now, but im going to be so fucking busy.. She;s always been a shoulder for me to cry on whenever ive been upset. I wish me and pookie didnt have to leave her stranded without a ride. haha
People say that you shouldnt be in a relationship when your in college. Time to go out and get drunk and screw people and you find the relationship later. Well.. that is not the case here. Josh is an incredible person, and thigns with him have been going so well. I love the kid so much. I know we're not technically together, but i dont want to lose him. I dont want anyone else. He's been a huge support for me in this last year. I feel like things cuole really prgress from here. I mean, if he find someone else, then as long as hes happy. But im just scared.
I'm going to miss my mom a lot too. She's been my hero. She's been my best friend. I can tell her everything and know that she'll always love me. She's a wonderful person, and I going to miss her smiling face everyday. I defenitly will be that loser at school that calls her mommy everynight. But you know what, my mom is cool.
The only person im not scared to lose is erik. He'll always be around to bust my balls.
Im scared about everyting. New School. New People. New Life. Change, even if it sucks, is always for the better, and im sure college will be a great expierence. But i guess you could say it is a little overwhelming. Its just wierd to thing that instead of my tiny little duplex where the daschounds run wild and the parents put up a drum set in the kitchen, a cramped dorm room will be my new home.
I am excited to meet new people and develop new friendships, but i will never leave the old ones behind.
Until next time...
*Julia*
I miss Pookie alot. Even though she is an hour away, it seems like forever. She was my first friend when i moved to burrillville. She was the only one that didnt make fun of me for crying because I didnt know what the quiet bell meant at lunch time. Shes stuck with me through all the thick and thin throughout our years together, and it sucks that shes not around. I'm so afraid shes going to make a new best friend at college and forget all about me. She's such a great person and i dont want college to change who she is. I just want her to come home and have a sleepover with me and tanya again. i never knew college could be this hard.
Tanya...she another one. I really hope that college does not break our friendship. she is like my sister. shes the only one that when it is silent in the car, is isn't awkward. i know we will see eachother because we will be working together now, but im going to be so fucking busy.. She;s always been a shoulder for me to cry on whenever ive been upset. I wish me and pookie didnt have to leave her stranded without a ride. haha
People say that you shouldnt be in a relationship when your in college. Time to go out and get drunk and screw people and you find the relationship later. Well.. that is not the case here. Josh is an incredible person, and thigns with him have been going so well. I love the kid so much. I know we're not technically together, but i dont want to lose him. I dont want anyone else. He's been a huge support for me in this last year. I feel like things cuole really prgress from here. I mean, if he find someone else, then as long as hes happy. But im just scared.
I'm going to miss my mom a lot too. She's been my hero. She's been my best friend. I can tell her everything and know that she'll always love me. She's a wonderful person, and I going to miss her smiling face everyday. I defenitly will be that loser at school that calls her mommy everynight. But you know what, my mom is cool.
The only person im not scared to lose is erik. He'll always be around to bust my balls.
Im scared about everyting. New School. New People. New Life. Change, even if it sucks, is always for the better, and im sure college will be a great expierence. But i guess you could say it is a little overwhelming. Its just wierd to thing that instead of my tiny little duplex where the daschounds run wild and the parents put up a drum set in the kitchen, a cramped dorm room will be my new home.
I am excited to meet new people and develop new friendships, but i will never leave the old ones behind.
Until next time...
*Julia*