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As I sit here, thinking about my life this far and wondering about the rest of you, with my two dogs nearby, chillin' on the floor, licking their paws and pondering when there next meal is, I thought I'd leave a new blog so you all could have something to read.
First off, I just want to say thank you. All of you have affected me in a positive light, and I don't say thank you enough. So thanks for being some of the best people I'll have ever had the priviledge of knowing. Thank you for being so amazing that you've missed my hand and touched my heart. That's for all of you, whether I've known you since Kindergarten or later.
Secondly, I was thinking about my life since I've gotten to college and how much it's changed. I mean, I've lived through almost my entire freshman year and I have realized a few things.
1. I'm Julia Colleen Cain, that means that I can't be anyone else.
2. No matter who wants me to be someone else, there's still people that want me to be me. And because of that, and because of you all, I can be me, and be ok with that.
3. No one is perfect, but no one is meant to be perfect. I have to stop judging people, because judging does not good for anyone.
4. My family is definately not perfect, but I love them because they are my family. They can't be anyone that they aren't, they can't change.
5. I love my sister and parents. They are probably the best people I've ever known.
6. The look in my dogs eyes when they see me is the best look in the world. They have so much love and it's so wonderful to have them.
7. The drama when I return home will always be there, and I'm sorry to those of us in the middle of all of this. To those who are against people dating, life is the way it chooses to be. If I choose to be impartial, then maybe that's the best option for all of us. I'm sorry to those of you who wish I would pick a side. I'm sorry to those of you affected by this. And I'm sorry to those of you who want to tell everyone, and prove your love but don't think you can. I just want to say that I'm happy for you, and I hope this lasts a long time. No one wants to hurt anyone, and we all want eachother to be happy. Let's look at that this way. I'm going to be stubborn Jules on this and say Congrats and thank you for being good about this you guys. I'm sorry that I'm not picking a side and telling people how life should be. i have no right to do so and I refuse to.
8. I am in love. And this boy that I love, this boy that I think about more then myself during the day, is one boy that truly gets what goes on in my head. He gets me, he sees when I'm at the point of far gone, and he puts his hand in mine. I know that he'll always be there for me. And I love him. And although I'm scared, because one day maybe I won't be with this boy anymore, I've learned a lot so far. I just hope there's years of memories to live through with him. Riley, you're amazing.
9. My college friends are some people in which I never thought I'd ever know. And college has changed me. I love the fact that I can be Jules, and not censored high school version either. I love the fact that CWU is my second home and I love my friends and roommates for next year. I just wish that one day all of us can get together and talk about how stupid we were in college, oh wait, that day will be at my wedding..haha.
10. My high school friends always have proven to me that they are dependable people. They have proven to me that no matter what shit we all go through, we're still friends. So thank you to all of you. You've let me grow and still accept me for me. So I love you all and thank you.
11. My Y Kids are so great, and yet so distant from me now.I miss you guys, take care!
That's it for now.
Take care and have a great night everyone.
Jules
Ps. I love you all