entertaining thoughts....

[jules4444]

So tonight I was looking through my presents pictures (from the day and the night party) and all I could think about was how ironic it is that I liked so may of the pictures. I used to hate my pics. and now I look at them and think "yeah... those are nice of me." Don't get me wrong, there are some that are bad, but for the most part, I was pleased

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[gripsofinsanity]

I think that's just a part of life and evolution.. no matter how certain a person can be about goals, or how concrete your resolve about how to live life is, there's always some thing getting in the way.. it's as if the only certain thing to count on is doubt.

I've been going through that a LOT the past couple of months.. some times i feel certain about what I want and then a day later I'll doubt everything about my "error proof plan". If everything was perfect then we wouldn't have anything to strive for.. there would be no aspirations left.. so, even though it's the most inconvenient thing in this whole freakin' world, sometimes doubt is the only way to get where you REALLY need to be...

at least, that's this insane girl's opinion ;-)

[jules4444]

Thank you for taking the time to comment girl. Doubt plagues me... I hate it! I get so mad when things don't go my way and at the same time I don't really even know which way it is that I wanted them to go in the first place. Confusing I know.

I thought you might like this (it's an away message my friend and I always put up when we are frustrated):

"Girls are like apples on trees. The best apples are at the tops of those trees. Boys don't want to reach for those apples because they're afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead they go for the lower level apples or the rotten apples on the ground that aren't as good, but easier to attain. So the apples at the tops of those trees think that there is something wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. This is why we just have to be a little patient. Eventually, the right boy - one willing to risk falling to climb higher - will come along and pick us! :-)

[anonymous]

Confidence and getting what you want are two different things. "Who are we to try and tell ourselves that we have any control over how you feel?" We have total control over our body and mind. We, humans can overcome any obstacle we put our full efforts into something. You can control your feelings if you wanted through strenght and will power. You say you know what you want, I think your bewildered because you didn't get what you want (at least what you thought you wanted). Having confidence is having trust and assurance in everything you do, you should know what you want, no questions asked. If something goes wrong learn from it, don't question who you are or what you want. Doubt will tear you apart, find out what you really want and stick with it.

"I do not know what I may appear to the world; but to myself I seem to have been only a boy playing on the seashore."

-Sir Isaac Newton

[jules4444]

Ahhh anonymous quote man.... strength and will power are no match for love. Then again, maybe that love is an illusion. I really wish u would claim ur work in here bc I love that u take the time to actually think before you post. I have something to share with ya that might sum up the whole of my frustration. It was my away message today:

"Why must Julie hold such double standard opinions? I wish that were not the case! I wish I could just say fuck it once in a while.... but I can't. I want to be the best - the priority. I want a high position. I want respect. But I too am actively searching for something different. So I criticize what I would essentially do to another myself. DAMNIT. :-\"