All that I've got....
Yet again please pardon my lack of updating and commenting. The computer downstairs (with my MSN and such) is still being a bugger, and I have only so much free time to come onto my dad's computer upstairs to update. I know, excuses excuses. Such a dumb thing. But I have them.
I've been pretty busy. Last Friday I hung out with everyone. When I say everyone, I mean Megan, Andrew, Josh, Dannon, Kyle and Dan. We went to see Land of the Dead. It was awesome. Completely gorey and gross, but awesome. I had a bad moment that night though... We were all in the Glen's parking lot watching Andrew and Kyle skate, when I saw my blue flower earring on the ground. I immediately reached for my ears. The other one was gone too. I picked the one off of the ground and then frantically began looking for the other one. After about fifteen minutes of looking, with help from Megan, Josh and Dannon, I couldn't find it. I told them not to worry about it and it wasn't a big deal... they saw right through me. Told me that it was a big deal, since I seemed so upset. And let me tell you.... I was very upset. I know, it's just an earring... but it's not just and earring to me... The blue flower earrings were the ones Melissa gave me as a welcome back present when I got out of the hospital last summer. The ones she said she saw in the store and immediately thought, "I have to get those for Nina." And she did. And she gave them to me right after rushing into my house and tackling me, crying and giving me a huge hug. Those earrings mean a lot to me... I can't believe one of them is gone....
I've hung out with Megan practically every day. We've gone to the beach, hung out down town, watched movies, hung out at my house and her house, etc. Monday night Megan, Andrew, Christina, Kyle and I went bowling. Ben Walker and Other Andrew were there with Little Megan from Roast & Toast. Per and Forrest were there as well. And Athena. And then Kerry and Ryan and Art Boy Josh came later. As did Ben Brown and Mitch. There were three lanes of us. It was a lot of fun. Then Will, Shaun and Greg (Megan's friends from the Woolly Bugger) came in and they talked to us for awhile as well. Apparently, according to Shaun via Megan, I am "cute with interesting eyes." But I can't bowl ;-) It was fun. Afterwards Megan, Christina and I went back to my house. We watched The Notebook. Awesome movie. Made me want to cry, the sap that I am.
Yesterday I hung out with Megan for a bit, and then around 10:00 at night, we got the keys to school from her dad, went out to school and watched a movie in the octagon with one of the TV's from the library. It was so cool. We were just lounging out there in the hall with blankets and pillows watching Moonstruck. Whenever I walk down the hall and through the octagon next year, all I'll be able to think of is watching movies and having the band recording session.
It was weird going up the driveway to school. It felt like we were only on a short break and then going back for good. It was just... unexplainable.
We left around 2:00 a.m. Megan had fallen asleep. I put everything away. Then I paused out in the lobby. Looked at the bulletin boards that are hanging in the office. The ones with all of the articles that have to do with Concord throughout the school year. The most recent was the picture of Stephanie and the quote by Megan from graduation. The picture of NHS was up, from way back in October during Habitat for Humanity. The one that just got me was the one from Merchant of Venice. It feels like so long ago, but in reality, it was only in the end of January. It was only five months ago. But still... it feels so odd. I had tears in my eyes. I don't know why. Probably because it's dawning on me that this is going to be my senior year. My last year at Concord. My last year at home... It's just unnerving.
I worked today from 12:00-7:00. It was pretty good. I worked with Caleb for most of the day. It wasn't so bad. We talked a bunch, which made it not boring. And all of the people there are very nice. And entertaining :-)
But do you want to know the coolest thing about work today? Guess what time I clocked in. Aside from Megan, only fans of Thursday will get this.... Still feel like guessing what time I clocked in? It's bad-ass. I didn't even know it until I looked at my time card. 12:03. Hell yes.
I work again tomorrow from 4:00 until closing. I won't be home until around 12:00 or so. I don't think I'll be writing an entry tomorrow night. Even if I would be, it would be pretty short. I think I'm helping Megan move tomorrow until I go to work. We'll see how things go. When I wake up :-)
I got one of the most wonderful e-mails from Megan about my last entry....
From: Megan Branson
To: Nina Lisa
Date: Saturday, June 25, 2005
Subject: All right Missy, that's it...
I can't take it anymore. You light up whenever you are around Josh and you know it. You know you two are adorable together and are just ridiculous flirts. And honestly, you have ABSOLUTELY no control over it. So what if you suck at relationships and the like. Me too! Just look at me and Andrew! What the fuck!? We are the most strange relationship ever. You will only get better at relationships as you try and fail and try again. That's what it takes and there is no point in putting up that wall that we are so good at convincing ourselves of. I'm not going to tell you what to do, but I will insist that you stop lying to yourself and enjoy the fact that you smile like I've never seen when he is around. Admit it, you know it's true! *Wink* And, by the way, he likes you. So ha! Guess who rocks at the middle school middle man.... me, baby, me! Someone's gotta do it. So I'm taking it upon myeslf. So har har har to you.
That's it. Stop lying to yourself. I love seeing you so lit up. You're beautiful and even though I say it all the time, so does he, and that is nice to hear out of a guy's mouth. Sit back and enjoy the ride of having a crush. You know you love it!
Love you forever and ever!
Megs xxx
How sweet of her. It was a great e-mail. Yeah, so I really like him. I admit it. I haven't seen him in about a week though. She can say he likes me all she wants, but I just don't know. It really doesn't seem like it. Sure, we flirt. But everyone flirts. With everyone. It's no proof. So I think now is the time for me to stop acting like such the teenage girl that I am, even though I say that all the fucking time. Ugh. I don't know. I'm one fucked up chick. Is anyone really capable of handling being with me? Who the hell knows. Not me, that's for sure.
I miss Melissa. A lot.
Work tomorrow. 4:00. I already mentioned that, didn't I... yeah, I did. I'm losing my dear old mind.
I'll be just fine pretending I'm not, I'm far from lonely and it's all that I've got....
.: Julie :.
I've been pretty busy. Last Friday I hung out with everyone. When I say everyone, I mean Megan, Andrew, Josh, Dannon, Kyle and Dan. We went to see Land of the Dead. It was awesome. Completely gorey and gross, but awesome. I had a bad moment that night though... We were all in the Glen's parking lot watching Andrew and Kyle skate, when I saw my blue flower earring on the ground. I immediately reached for my ears. The other one was gone too. I picked the one off of the ground and then frantically began looking for the other one. After about fifteen minutes of looking, with help from Megan, Josh and Dannon, I couldn't find it. I told them not to worry about it and it wasn't a big deal... they saw right through me. Told me that it was a big deal, since I seemed so upset. And let me tell you.... I was very upset. I know, it's just an earring... but it's not just and earring to me... The blue flower earrings were the ones Melissa gave me as a welcome back present when I got out of the hospital last summer. The ones she said she saw in the store and immediately thought, "I have to get those for Nina." And she did. And she gave them to me right after rushing into my house and tackling me, crying and giving me a huge hug. Those earrings mean a lot to me... I can't believe one of them is gone....
I've hung out with Megan practically every day. We've gone to the beach, hung out down town, watched movies, hung out at my house and her house, etc. Monday night Megan, Andrew, Christina, Kyle and I went bowling. Ben Walker and Other Andrew were there with Little Megan from Roast & Toast. Per and Forrest were there as well. And Athena. And then Kerry and Ryan and Art Boy Josh came later. As did Ben Brown and Mitch. There were three lanes of us. It was a lot of fun. Then Will, Shaun and Greg (Megan's friends from the Woolly Bugger) came in and they talked to us for awhile as well. Apparently, according to Shaun via Megan, I am "cute with interesting eyes." But I can't bowl ;-) It was fun. Afterwards Megan, Christina and I went back to my house. We watched The Notebook. Awesome movie. Made me want to cry, the sap that I am.
Yesterday I hung out with Megan for a bit, and then around 10:00 at night, we got the keys to school from her dad, went out to school and watched a movie in the octagon with one of the TV's from the library. It was so cool. We were just lounging out there in the hall with blankets and pillows watching Moonstruck. Whenever I walk down the hall and through the octagon next year, all I'll be able to think of is watching movies and having the band recording session.
It was weird going up the driveway to school. It felt like we were only on a short break and then going back for good. It was just... unexplainable.
We left around 2:00 a.m. Megan had fallen asleep. I put everything away. Then I paused out in the lobby. Looked at the bulletin boards that are hanging in the office. The ones with all of the articles that have to do with Concord throughout the school year. The most recent was the picture of Stephanie and the quote by Megan from graduation. The picture of NHS was up, from way back in October during Habitat for Humanity. The one that just got me was the one from Merchant of Venice. It feels like so long ago, but in reality, it was only in the end of January. It was only five months ago. But still... it feels so odd. I had tears in my eyes. I don't know why. Probably because it's dawning on me that this is going to be my senior year. My last year at Concord. My last year at home... It's just unnerving.
I worked today from 12:00-7:00. It was pretty good. I worked with Caleb for most of the day. It wasn't so bad. We talked a bunch, which made it not boring. And all of the people there are very nice. And entertaining :-)
But do you want to know the coolest thing about work today? Guess what time I clocked in. Aside from Megan, only fans of Thursday will get this.... Still feel like guessing what time I clocked in? It's bad-ass. I didn't even know it until I looked at my time card. 12:03. Hell yes.
I work again tomorrow from 4:00 until closing. I won't be home until around 12:00 or so. I don't think I'll be writing an entry tomorrow night. Even if I would be, it would be pretty short. I think I'm helping Megan move tomorrow until I go to work. We'll see how things go. When I wake up :-)
I got one of the most wonderful e-mails from Megan about my last entry....
From: Megan Branson
To: Nina Lisa
Date: Saturday, June 25, 2005
Subject: All right Missy, that's it...
I can't take it anymore. You light up whenever you are around Josh and you know it. You know you two are adorable together and are just ridiculous flirts. And honestly, you have ABSOLUTELY no control over it. So what if you suck at relationships and the like. Me too! Just look at me and Andrew! What the fuck!? We are the most strange relationship ever. You will only get better at relationships as you try and fail and try again. That's what it takes and there is no point in putting up that wall that we are so good at convincing ourselves of. I'm not going to tell you what to do, but I will insist that you stop lying to yourself and enjoy the fact that you smile like I've never seen when he is around. Admit it, you know it's true! *Wink* And, by the way, he likes you. So ha! Guess who rocks at the middle school middle man.... me, baby, me! Someone's gotta do it. So I'm taking it upon myeslf. So har har har to you.
That's it. Stop lying to yourself. I love seeing you so lit up. You're beautiful and even though I say it all the time, so does he, and that is nice to hear out of a guy's mouth. Sit back and enjoy the ride of having a crush. You know you love it!
Love you forever and ever!
Megs xxx
How sweet of her. It was a great e-mail. Yeah, so I really like him. I admit it. I haven't seen him in about a week though. She can say he likes me all she wants, but I just don't know. It really doesn't seem like it. Sure, we flirt. But everyone flirts. With everyone. It's no proof. So I think now is the time for me to stop acting like such the teenage girl that I am, even though I say that all the fucking time. Ugh. I don't know. I'm one fucked up chick. Is anyone really capable of handling being with me? Who the hell knows. Not me, that's for sure.
I miss Melissa. A lot.
Work tomorrow. 4:00. I already mentioned that, didn't I... yeah, I did. I'm losing my dear old mind.
I'll be just fine pretending I'm not, I'm far from lonely and it's all that I've got....
.: Julie :.