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Been monnnndo sick lately. :( -- This weekedn, Firday I went to the football game with Chels & Nate. Good time. I got to watch my "crush" play football. ;) & I got to watch the one & only, Ceejay Felter<333 & the rest, they did well. Saturday I went to Brians* Birthday party. Afterward Chels & I hung out with Bryan, Vince, Ernie, Tony, Nick, & Bob. We went to McDonalds at like, 2am. & everyone was there, weird eh? Joe, Scott, Curtis, Mya, Rob, Nate....& Tristan :'( were all there, at 2am. It was so cool.. but I cried. Then we went back to Vinces, & I left.. because I was being a stupid .. childish, depressed girl. Sunday I went to the mall with Curtis, Rob, Jed, Timmy. It was pretty fun. I was sad that day, too. So I was a "party pooper" once again. Yesterday I was sick.. sick sick sick. All I ever am is Sick. I think I should just croak, rather than waste all these medications, which do nothing. & I'm sick now, I'm not going -- :'( ew, I'm watching the Wedding singer & "i wanna grow old with you." is ON! :'( TRISTAN... ah, I suck at life.. :(.. I miss him. FUCK, I'm going to cry. -- PEace<3
Jules.
Modification:
I found this letter to Tristan, from when I lived in CA. I never sent it. But read it, it's so weird.
"The feelings that go through me when I think of you are unexplainable. You make me so happy & I'm thankful that you're in my life. You bring joy to my being & light to my heart. If I could be with you for every minute, of every day, I would. & I know I would love it. Everything about you, has me. I would do anything for you, day or night. Your whole body is utter beauty & your being, is twice as beautiful. You're the most perfect person, I have ever met. Inside, & out. I could be with you for the rest of my life, & not be bored. I would MUCH rather go through pain with you, than pleasure with someone else. If you wanted me to be, I'd be at your side, for the rest of my life. Whenever I'm not with you, I think about you. Whenever I think about you, I'm happy. I know that the only way I can truly be happy, is with you. I'm so in love with you, that it sometimes, scares me. I've never felt so much emotion & feeling toward one person. Please remember, I'm here, always."
Everything in that letter still goes, other than, when I think of him I'm happy.. becuase thinking og him makes me wanna die. But there you go, just thought I'd share that with you all.
Jules.
Modification:
I found this letter to Tristan, from when I lived in CA. I never sent it. But read it, it's so weird.
"The feelings that go through me when I think of you are unexplainable. You make me so happy & I'm thankful that you're in my life. You bring joy to my being & light to my heart. If I could be with you for every minute, of every day, I would. & I know I would love it. Everything about you, has me. I would do anything for you, day or night. Your whole body is utter beauty & your being, is twice as beautiful. You're the most perfect person, I have ever met. Inside, & out. I could be with you for the rest of my life, & not be bored. I would MUCH rather go through pain with you, than pleasure with someone else. If you wanted me to be, I'd be at your side, for the rest of my life. Whenever I'm not with you, I think about you. Whenever I think about you, I'm happy. I know that the only way I can truly be happy, is with you. I'm so in love with you, that it sometimes, scares me. I've never felt so much emotion & feeling toward one person. Please remember, I'm here, always."
Everything in that letter still goes, other than, when I think of him I'm happy.. becuase thinking og him makes me wanna die. But there you go, just thought I'd share that with you all.