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[jukebox85]

I've come to realize I don't know how to be in relationship. Every relationship I have I get around the six month mark and realize they are not exactly who I want them to be. This one has been different. But only how I feel about him. I'm crazy about him, which is probably also why I'm most disappointed than any other. If this doesn't work I have

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[bangbangbazooka]

that sucks. it's unfortunate that this is the way the relationships go. most of them at least. it's not an age thing; no one is too old to tell you how much they care about you. it sounds to me like even though he doesn't mind being in a relationship, you are probably more into him than he is in to you. no excuses. it sucks and i'm sure the thought of not being with him is scary, but you're 23, and the true key to a fullfilling and long-lasting relationship is being totally and 100% in love with someone and not doubting whether or not they feel the exact same way about you.

[illshowyouall]

I pretty much agree with this.

I gotta say, really this sounds familiar to relationships I've been in too. I think most people have had this at some point or another. There's always that old addage that you can't change another person. I guess we all leave our marks on each other but you can't really change who someone IS, they have to change that. Maybe he just doesn't know how to express himself, or maybe there isn't much to express. I think some people just don't think about their significant other as anything other than a friend you get to sleep with. Which, you're right, doesn't feel special at all. Sounds like it's lacking the intimacy aspect of a relationship, being able to be honest and open and vulnerable. A lot of people struggle with sharing that, because it does leave you vulnerable. :-(

[love_jonny]

i know you're intention is not to inspire sympathy.. but i feel bad for you. i kindof always have with this guy and i can't quite explain other than that i think he's not for you. but i've never met him, i'm crazy, and what i think doesn't matter anyway.

xo

[jukebox85]

See actually i do believe he is for me because for the first time ever I want to do something about it and tell him how i feel and try this communication thing that i've never been good with. I've never bothered to even think about doing that with someone before. I know it seems like I'm complaining about him but more so I'm complaining about myself and trying to get my pussy ass up and do something and fight for the guy that I love.