To a Happier ME
I think I'm getting better at being me. ME. Myself. I think I've really opened up to my new bf. It's a step by step process of course, but I truly believe I'm more comfortable with him than anyone one I know.
And I think I'm a much happier person than the girl who was supposedly "me" more than a month ago. If the me then met the me now... I don't think she would believe I were her future self. I've changed a lot, I think. And it's definitely a change for the better. I believe I have my bf to thank for most of this. The rest has to do with all the time I spent in my head thinking about all the misery I had and what I had to do to change that. So I've learned to keep my chin up, even if it doesn't always seem that way, underneath I've been pretty damn optimistic instead of my former negative self.
I know I'm in a stage of my life where I have a lot to deal with, a lot to think about, many decisions to make for the future, etc. I've thought about it finally. The whole picture. And this is what I've come to in my head:
I want to persue an art-type career.
I would like to finish college and have a degree to show for it.
I want to move out of my parents house.
I want to spend as much of me free time with my bf as possible.
I want to have a job to pay for things, even if it doesnt make a lot of $
I'd like to eventually live happily with a husband who loves me.
I'd like to one day have kids.
I want to get shit done, but also have fun without worrying about everything at all time.
I just want to live my life with the person I love and be happy. :)
Sometimes.. I'm just not sure how to go about certain things or how to do the things I need/want to do. I'm glad that I have somone who loves me and cares enough to help me with anything I need and to keep me smiling and happy :) I hope I continue opening up to my bf, aka best friend, and learn to be more comfortable with myself.
This way things can only get better right?
To a brighter vision of the future,
To a happier ME,
-JML
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