"china is going to take over... that is unless the world ends first"
so i'm an emotional mess...
last night was really fun in that i got to hang out jordan and just chill, which was really nice... but then the evening ended on a very sour note... i want to make something very clear to every/anyone who reads this --- if you tell me something and you don't want anyone to know, you can tell me and no one will know... period... yes, i will cover tracks and i will do pretty much anything to protect that confidence and protect you as the person confiding in me... and i apologize for anyone who feels like they've been lied to in an effort to protect someone --- i love all of you very much... very very much... and in my protective mother mode, all i want to do is make sure that my friends don't suffer -- whether it be from a loss of trust, a loss of faith, a loss of reputation, a loss of anything... the only time i would ever alter the truth would be because if i didn't, someone else would be horribly hurt --- yes, i'm huge on honesty, and when it comes to me and what i do, i'll be point blank honest about it, because i'm the one affected... but i don't feel it's right to allow my words to harm someone else simply because someone knew the right question to ask... --- i never really thought of it as a negative quality, because my intentions are nothing but good... i don't ever want to see anyone hurt... i know how it feels and i don't wish that upon anyone... yes, anyone --- so i guess this is my attempt to apologize to those who have been hurt or feel like they may be hurt by that trait... i really am sorry... *sigh*
i got very little sleep last night, which probably doesn't help the overall wave of despair that i felt today, but it was just bad... i did so much at work today that was completely mindless, so i was left to nothing but my thoughts... which i certainly could have done without today... i needed to keep my mind busy in order to keep my sanity... but alas, between the tempermental copy machine that jammed literally over 15 times on me and the phones that wouldn't stop ringing... i had to take 5 minutes and just sit away from everyone... i about lost it... i got a call today that really did help... it was the "right thing" to help my day...
tonight, blair and i went out for coffee, i went over her jr miss essay and helped her w/ her prose for the talent portion (august 21... you better be there to support her!) and we just talked for awhile, it was nice, i love her a lot
and i love all of you guys a lot, too... i hope you all believe me, i really do... have a wonderful evening, xoxoxo
last night was really fun in that i got to hang out jordan and just chill, which was really nice... but then the evening ended on a very sour note... i want to make something very clear to every/anyone who reads this --- if you tell me something and you don't want anyone to know, you can tell me and no one will know... period... yes, i will cover tracks and i will do pretty much anything to protect that confidence and protect you as the person confiding in me... and i apologize for anyone who feels like they've been lied to in an effort to protect someone --- i love all of you very much... very very much... and in my protective mother mode, all i want to do is make sure that my friends don't suffer -- whether it be from a loss of trust, a loss of faith, a loss of reputation, a loss of anything... the only time i would ever alter the truth would be because if i didn't, someone else would be horribly hurt --- yes, i'm huge on honesty, and when it comes to me and what i do, i'll be point blank honest about it, because i'm the one affected... but i don't feel it's right to allow my words to harm someone else simply because someone knew the right question to ask... --- i never really thought of it as a negative quality, because my intentions are nothing but good... i don't ever want to see anyone hurt... i know how it feels and i don't wish that upon anyone... yes, anyone --- so i guess this is my attempt to apologize to those who have been hurt or feel like they may be hurt by that trait... i really am sorry... *sigh*
i got very little sleep last night, which probably doesn't help the overall wave of despair that i felt today, but it was just bad... i did so much at work today that was completely mindless, so i was left to nothing but my thoughts... which i certainly could have done without today... i needed to keep my mind busy in order to keep my sanity... but alas, between the tempermental copy machine that jammed literally over 15 times on me and the phones that wouldn't stop ringing... i had to take 5 minutes and just sit away from everyone... i about lost it... i got a call today that really did help... it was the "right thing" to help my day...
tonight, blair and i went out for coffee, i went over her jr miss essay and helped her w/ her prose for the talent portion (august 21... you better be there to support her!) and we just talked for awhile, it was nice, i love her a lot
and i love all of you guys a lot, too... i hope you all believe me, i really do... have a wonderful evening, xoxoxo