Jun 17, 2009 17:52
No fucking clue what that title was about but anyways, that is not important, now is it? The important thing is that I am in LOVE with the new series, Mental. Dr. Gallagher is SO hot, not to mention he thinks outside of the box and is caring, sweet, and patient. Helloooo, totally going to marry him. Sorry Dr. House, but you're in a psych ward right now which means the wedding will have to be put off and this guy kind of RUNS a psych ward so unless you get your shit together right now and pick me up on a white horse and marry me then you have some intense competition, my love. I know, I'm a complete loser. Worst part is, if it wasn't for Hulu, I wouldn't watch anywhere close to as much television as I have been and probably would not have even seen Mental yet. I also am developing an unhealthy addiction to Royal Pains (luckily I don't want to marry that doctor, or else you may see me on Jerry Springer shortly) and Dexter, whom I have considered marrying but the whole lack of emotions and sex thing wouldn't really work for me. So the battle is one between Gallagher and House, who will win? Noone knows. I need a life... desperately hahah. Thank everything good on the face of the planet for Hulu and On Demand. Oh yeah.
I'm pretty fucking pissed that the U.S. Of Tara, season one, is completely over. I LOVE that crazy bitch. She's insane. I also cannot wait to go to the boyfriend's house tonight. I miss him. Rob and I never went more than a day in between seeing eachother. I already know though that if he's going to be sarcastic and bitchy and in a bad mood that it's going to really upset me bad because this weekend coming up is going to be such a hard weekend with father's day and all and I'm just dwelling on it and dreading it, which I know I shouldn't do, and I need a lot of emotional support and I'm very fragile and Jeff is very bad with fragility and emotions so I'm more than a little nervous about an impending mental break down in the near future. I'm contemplating spending Sunday in a sleeping pill induced coma and the rest of the weekend in a hole in the ground somewhere. Sounds dreamy, doesn't it?
I blew three hundred dollars today *cringe*. Okay, I didn't BLOW it, I spent it on something productive and worthwhile that will better my life but that's beside the fucking point!! The whole five minutes of giving the money to Jeff for the EMT class, all I could think about was how much stuff that I need and want that I could be spending it on. Especially since, and this noone knows, I'm not one hundred percent positive I actually want to take this class. I'm having doubts that I can do it, even though I know I'm smart and all, it's just not that interesting. I mean, come one, I want my career to be in a field where I'm working with people that TAKE lives, not saving them. Where is the fun in that? Wow.. just totally sounded like a horrible person hahah. Oops.
Speaking of my life, me and Rob had a little fight yesterday, not going to get into the details or the reason or anything like that but he said something that really made me think. He said this: "you really need to look at your life like how i am right now and sit there and be like what the fuck am i doing cause your smart you strong but you got all these people who are keeping you from doing a lot of shit you need to break away and do you like you were trying to do" and I replied back saying I am doing that and that my life is going just the way I want it to and everything is falling into place but that, of course, is a complete lie and he is so right but I'm scared and unmotivated and don't know how to do what I need to do or what is best for me and it's all so confusing and I'm so effin' lost with noone to help me and no answers but that's what life is about, isn't it? I don't know anymore... back to Dexter, or possibly True Blood if it's on On Demand, sounds like a good series that I'd like. Bye for now people who don't read my entries because I have no friends on here lol.
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