mp + daily ruminations

[judy_o_green]

i was just updating my vc info.

and i went to the alum page.
so, yeah.
i was just thinking a little more about meg perry.

yeah, and i really didn't know her.
and quite honestly, that is not a particular regret
but i have been just doing a basic meditation.

it sounds like and it seems that

and then what.

what is done with time

what is done

what do we do

what

not that why
no, that is for other mediations between brainparts

but what

what about me

what about her

what did she do?
she seemed to know how to get where she wanted to be
really, hands-on
like, her want gave her purpose.

opening that up.

does want direct one towards a purpose.

i think it may.

one might have purpose and never be aware.
awareness, awareness i am thinking
what do you matter anymore
i'll be aware of what i am
and not of what i am not

and then i will know
at least
what

i am
i am not

and that can make sense to me

so i can go get a job

so i can do these classes

i can let these things define me

i can find a home

(no... erase that. i will say something else)

i can find a place to live.

i will.
not because i can imagine it,
but because it is eventual
close enough to, inevitable

eventual
evitable
avoidance
averred

but not

still well, and i mean that, but thinking about thinking.
i have on my lap, my yellow sheet of things i am interested in doing.
many of these things are things i *ought* be doing.
but not all.
there is a cool exhibit at logan airport.
terminal e
i think you are able to walk among the swiss alps.
serious.
and of course, really really good.

i think my school id gets me into the mfa. thank god.
and if not, i'll be mighty pissed at those fuckers.
but i have a number down so that i can call them and be sure.
they also have some subject-specific documentaries going on there
(which, yea, i can do extra credit on/for/about/over/done)

there is an alumnae/i yellow pages thing.
that is good.

also, i went to the 'learning center'
or whatever
and got some stuff about resumes
shit, i should be doing that now.

in fact, ha, that is the biggest, or at least... no, obvious, huge, sigh.
--reason i got on the computer.
silly.

all over the place

but who wants that.

me, and not-me

end.